Episode 335: No Bad Blood

[00:00:00] You already know this motherfucker, it's your most favorite lover as always, Donald Peasley. Alongside of LaShawn. Another beautiful day man, but glad to be back. He's back y'all! Shout out to the good brother Vic man, um, see my brother out there running too, um, be consistent motherfucker. Also, to get to sitting in that seat you gotta be like a running ass nigga. Nah, I ain't say that, I said I'm crazy. I like that, I like that one. Shout out to the good brother man, um, glad to be back, Hawaii was dope, I guess I get into the Rosebud Thorn.

[00:00:30] Also, if you haven't subscribed to the Patreon, make sure you go do that. Facts! Yeah, I think we just dropped one of our biggest bangers on there. Yeah, fuck with the good brothers. Green flags man. Come on. Um, getting a lot of, yeah, there's a lot of great comments about that. The feedback from that one was... Yeah, that was insane. Oh, so y'all like when we're nice, okay, cool. It be you bro. It be you every time, bro, I'm telling you. Stop talking about the gender. Hey man, I'm just keeping it real. You keeping it real? I'm just keeping it real. Oh man. That's my green flag.

[00:01:01] Um, I guess the dude Rosebud Thorn. Rose of course is Hawaii. Um. How could it not be man? Rose is Hawaii. Ain't that one like the most beautiful places on earth? It is. It is. Um, also another Rose, me and LA talked about this one. Um, one of my mans was like off the grid for a minute. But, um, seeing him in lock-in on his health shit. Just out the way just doing what he want to do. Um, that was a, that was a beautiful thing.

[00:01:29] Cause his well-being was heavy on my mind, heavy on our minds. And, um, we just wanted to make sure he was good. So seeing him just lift the nigga bigger than me now and doing what he doing was a beautiful thing to see, man. Shout out to my brother. Um, Bud, what am I looking forward to? Ah, finishing off the summer. Actually, I'm looking for, actually another thing I'm looking forward to, Mills and LA birthday. Sounds so random. Um, but not random.

[00:01:58] Um, me and my brother are going to go to a concert. And, um, I'm waiting for LA to find a lot of something we do. For his birthday? Yeah, we supposed to go to a bearish shit. Go to a bearish show. Oh, y'all some Jamaican niggas. Yeah, I gotta, oh my God. I feel like I'm going to have to spend a lot of time with my brother. It'll be like short, little spurts. So, looking forward to that and seeing what LA is going to do. Um, we'll hang out with LA for a few hours. I'm not going to take up too much of this time. I know he likes to be alone sometimes. Well, we know you. Not even sometimes, a lot of times.

[00:02:25] Um, unless you, unless you, unless you, unless you some pain. Unless you some fine shit. Unless you some fine shit. Unless you some fine shit. All right. All right. Um. You know what I mean? My rose. Yo, yo, yo, yo. My thorn. Boy, that flight back, man. I was telling LA, boy, like, yo. Went with shorty. I'm talking to the person at the gate. You know, talking up. You gotta use a little charm. Yeah. Shorty. Shorty got upgraded to first. Oh. That shit didn't work in my face.

[00:02:55] Oh. Well, they just put me in. I was in comfort plus. So I was like. Feminism right there. I was like, all right, cool. Cause she really wanted to go. She never did, um, Delta one before. I've done it already. Okay. I was like, all right, go ahead. Go ahead. Don't, don't worry about me. I'm good. I got the comfort plus. See, I got extra leg room. Um, boy, they put me next to, it's like the three seater though. They put me next to two niggas my size. Oh, nah. I said yo, boy. Niggas put the brolic room. I said this nigga, yo, bro.

[00:03:22] And the thing about it, son in the middle, he keep rocking back and forth. I said, nah, this nigga anxious. Nigga anxious. I don't like that. I don't like that. Um, but the other guy in the end ended up moving because the exit row seats was empty. All of the exit row seats was empty. Mm. So son moved over. I had to get some rest this flight. Nah. Nigga kept shaking throughout the whole flight, bro. He kept fidgeting, but, um. But y'all made it here safely though. No. Got back safely. Yeah. That's a, that's a, that's a blessing. But, um, getting back in this heat and going straight back to work was another thorn, but.

[00:03:51] Oh, you landed into the heat wave. I landed. That was the last day though. That went that Wednesday. Oh, yeah. So that was, I got outside. I said, I don't know how niggas is doing it, but man, we here, man. That was my weekend. Um, blessed to be back. I hear that. Um, for me, I got a couple roses. I've been thinking about, um, first rose. I want to give to Jeremiah Fierce, Thomas Soba, Will Riley, my young boys. They all got drafted to the NBA. Shout out to that. You don't get to say that a lot. That's fine. So.

[00:04:19] My three young boys, I managed them when they were here in New York in 2023 for the Nike World Basketball Festival. They were part of, um, my team and I got to meet them that weekend and we grew, you know, connection throughout no love island, but we grew a connection throughout these last couple of years. So I've been able to watch their journey from their senior years of high school to their freshman years of college. And now they're going to the league. Um, so I'm really, really, uh, proud of them. Um, I shouted out all of them. I talked to all of them. So shout out to them. That's a rose.

[00:04:50] Um, on the music side, Yaya got a new feature with TJ Brown. That's out right now. Uh, Jordan Ariel, you drop bad. By the time you're listening to this, the video's out. So that was a lot of work that went into that. Um, so yeah, that's a rose for me. Do I have any more roses? Oh, my birthday's coming up. Well, I guess that would be my bud. Um, my bud is that I'm turning 33 in a week.

[00:05:20] Oh, by the time I hear this, it will be less than a week. But yes, looking forward to my birthday. Just looking forward to seeing another year. Another, another trip around those. The sun, you know what I'm saying? I'm not doing nothing. You know what I'm saying? Gotta relax. I spoke to my dad this morning. He was saying the same thing. He said, yo, just, just take it easy. I'm like, I got you pops. Don't even gotta worry about me. We can go to a spot, you know, get some appetizers. You know, there's a nice, you know what I'm saying? Make sure they got some apple juice. You know what I'm saying? That's all I need. I was gonna troll, but I'm gonna let that, I'm gonna let it go.

[00:05:47] Um, so yeah, I'm just looking forward to my birthday, seeing another year, man. But I'm just happy, I'm just happy about that. Um, thorn, thorn, thorn, thorn, thorn, thorn. Do I have a thorn? No, man. It's been like three weeks in a row. I've been chilling. It's been a good ass move, bro. It's a blessing. Like I said, I think it might be things that are happening that I'm just not acknowledging and it's thorn. I'm not giving them any power, so. Did the heat bother you at any point? No, I'm African. I'm fine.

[00:06:16] I don't, I don't, Dave was like, fair enough, no. I went outside, bro, I'm like, it's hot, but it's not, I mean, it was chill. I cracked the window in the car, so that, you know what I'm saying? Because I don't got the, I don't got that, the visor. Okay. I don't got the visor that blocks the sun, so I'm like, alright, here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to crack the window when I get out the car, so that some cool air can come through a little bit. Because when you box that shit up, bro, you go in that car, bro, it's like death. So, I, I, that's how I was defeating it.

[00:06:46] I just cracked the windows, you know what I'm saying? Driving around. Got to fix the AC and the whip though. I ain't gonna front. That's ghetto. Maybe that's a thorn. The AC in my car don't work. That shit, that shit. OD, OD. What's up, LA? Rose, same thing as Don, seeing my, seeing my guy alive first. Facts. Alive first. And living second. But then, see what he transformed into was great.

[00:07:15] At first it was like, you take it personal, like damn. But then, you take yourself out of it and you see what he did with his life and the space he's in, super commendable. Yeah. Uh, so that was my rose. Uh, my bud, something I'm looking forward to. Mmm. I don't even wanna say my birthday. Um, what, once again, getting my car back. Hmm.

[00:07:46] Yeah, my car, getting my car out of that shop. I feel like that, uh, that video with the, uh, the guy, I think it was some animal in the store. He was like, get you out of here. Shit, he was like, get you out of here. Get you out of here. Yeah. Yeah, it's all about my car. Oh, man. Um, and then, my thorn. Nah, I don't got a thorn. Yeah. Yeah, I don't got no thorn. Coming over to the thornless side, man. I don't got no, no real thorn. That's good. That's a blessing. That's a blessing.

[00:08:15] What's going on today though, man? Hey, for everybody listening, be sure to leave your rose bun and thorn in the comments. You know what I'm saying? I wanna hear what y'all going through this week. I would love that. I would love that. And then shoutouts to, we got five new subscribers this week. So shoutouts to Brian, Kayla. I'm not, we're gonna go with Ari, Miles, and then this person's name is just S. So shoutouts to all five of you guys. Shoutouts to y'all. Shoutouts to y'all. Subscribe to the Patreon if you haven't already. Subscribe to that Patreon now. You know. And tell a friend too. And tell a friend facts.

[00:08:46] Don, you put something in the notes last night. I put it in the notes. Hang on, friend. I was about to add match it to the notes, bro. I was like, ah, let's not project. I think it was no bad blood. No bad blood. Yeah, no bad blood. Yeah, that's what I remember. I talk about how that was brought up. I remember on a few weeks, a few weeks ago I talked about how my old job, like I was gonna do another, a side, a little side gig.

[00:09:12] So if you're, if you, if you're new here, I got let go from my last job. I worked at PBS. It's a show called Firing Line. Um, as a PA, but I was mostly editing. So, I hit my old boss up. I was like, hey, if you got anything going on, let me know. I would love to help out, edit any videos. Cool, cool, cool. She was like, matter of fact, I actually do have something for you. Matter of fact.

[00:09:41] I was like, oh yeah, let's do it. And it was a thought of like, yo, what if I left this shit on bad terms? Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. I would never been able to get some bread from her. Mm-hmm. She was like, I'm gonna put you on part-time, but you're gonna be getting paid every week. Mm-hmm. So I was just like, can I get a dollar? Okay. Yeah, you need to give me a dollar. I got a dollar. So, um, it was, it was a little bit of that. And, and me and LA were talking, like when I put it in the chat, LA hit me up, it was like, I just thought about this. Like.

[00:10:13] Oh yeah, facts. I just had wrote down a, a letting go prayer. Mm-hmm. A letting go prayer? Yeah. On how to let go of shit. What does that sound like? Um. Not in detail, but like, what is it, like, what's the, the goal of the prayer? Uh, just in the sense of, uh, not being bitter. Mm. Moving on from things. Okay. Not being bitter. Uh. Sometimes that feels so good, doesn't it? What you mean?

[00:10:41] Yeah, because you have some way to put that in. That energy. Okay. So you let go of it, you know. Mm-hmm. And peacefully, you let it go peacefully, then you, you let go of all that energy that you wanted to, things you wanted to say. Yeah. Or sometimes like, uh, you don't always get to rectify your issues. Mm-hmm. You don't get a second chance to redeem yourself in that manner or space. Your apologies may not get, always get accepted.

[00:11:09] So you just gotta let it go. And not, not feel any type of way cause you didn't get to advocate for yourself or defend yourself or, or maybe you got perceived one way and they're holding on to that perception so you don't have a chance to, let me fix how you view me. Mm-hmm. So yeah. Yeah. So is the prayer a reminder to you? Yeah, just like, no, to help me with it. Okay. Cause sometimes I like, I'll, I'll get caught up in the fact that I ain't get that chance

[00:11:37] to like prove myself or, or the fact that you- Change a person's mind? Change a person's mind. Or you walking away with this perception that LaShawn is this. Mm-hmm. So my intent versus the, the result, you holding on to the result, my intent don't matter. Mm-hmm. Or whatever the case, so just letting go of that, you know what I'm saying? It's, it's, it's nothing that I should keep carrying going forward. So I, ironically I, uh, it was a verse that I read that like, it hit me like, oh, you gotta

[00:12:06] just let shit go. So yeah, as soon as Don wrote that, I actually just finished the prayer cause I was in my notes writing the prayer. Mm-hmm. And then I got the notification, Don added a new topic. So then I looked and I was like, oh shit. It's funny you did, it's funny you said that. And even with the job discussion, I was just also thinking about that as well. Like with relationships, it's like, I'm okay with things just not being there forever. Like nothing is forever, but it's just like, what's the point of holding on to this? It serves me, it doesn't serve me anymore.

[00:12:37] So it was just like- But that's a bad blood thing though, right? It's a bad blood thing, but it's just like, I would, I would pray that the person will understand. But it's like, it doesn't work like that every time. It's not fucking realistic. But just like, I have no bad blood. I think it is realistic actually. I think it's more realistic to understand, oh, this just didn't work and we can go, I think it is. All right. But I feel like it's such a, it's such a, a societal thing where it's like, yeah, you and your, your past relationships just shouldn't coexist in the same universe anymore.

[00:13:07] Now what's more realistic having no bad blood with a person you had relationships with, relationships with, relations with, or a friend? What's more realistic? Having no bad blood. Having no bad blood. Which one's more realistic? It depends on the separation. What's more realistic? I think it's more realistic with friends. It's more realistic with friends that it's- I think friendship connections get overlooked as how deep, how deep they actually actually are. Yeah, but like-

[00:13:36] But I feel like that's, that's more painful though. And- Which is why I feel like maybe it's, it's more understanding. Cause how many exes are you cool with for real? You're asking me genuinely? I was talking LA better. I was literally talking LA. I was more than LA. Wait, you don't do that, right? It's not that I don't do it. You can do it? I can do it. You can do it. Yeah. I'm not, I'm not beefing with any of my exes. See, here's the thing though, right? When I can say no bad blood, it may be no bad blood on my part.

[00:14:06] Yeah, but it's like it's- Their part is a whole different. You let them tell it. You know what I'm saying? And there's no vision of- That's my thing though. It's like, there's no, there's no friendship. It's like, yo, we just, we're just not cool anymore. We're just, it's just what it is, what it is. It's like one of my mans is like, he'll come around. I'm like, what's up? He's like, bro, you don't fuck with me no more? It's not, I don't fuck with you no more. We just, we just not close anymore, bro. It's cool.

[00:14:30] Like, that has an opportunity to be rectifiable, opposed to scorn relationships. So let's say, let's say you and Target, right? I know you like going to Target after the haircut, right? And then you see an ex-girlfriend in the line, like on the self-checkout line. Y'all ain't that next to the same machine. She stealing. I think I'm about to steal. Cause I was at Target now. I just saw a random person- We putting money in the white people pockets again. I can tell you about that.

[00:15:00] I can tell you, it's very convenient. But like, I feel like the self-checkout line is like, if you're a personable person, you can always talk to the person left to your right, if they need help or whatever the case may be. And let's say your ex is in the machine right next to you. You feel like there's no like space to be like, yo, what up? It depends. Like, yo, what up? It depends. It's like a smack on the ass. I'm smack on the ass. You nigga crazy. Nah, I'm thinking of the show as a boy. How you doing? You good? What's going on? How you feeling? No, see, that's too intimate. You got to have to force behind you.

[00:15:30] See, now you're not assaulted. Why your hair so long? The thing you cuffing ass is crazy. You're on the talking line. Nah, but just imagine that. Like, I feel like a space like that is very like, there's no space for bad blood there. Just like, yo, what up? You good? All right. Or if you know where you stand with that person- That's different then. Like, so, okay, cool. So, like I said, it may not be no bad blood on my part. Uh-huh. But if there's bad blood on her, I'm not speaking of her. Why not?

[00:16:00] I ain't gonna front. I'm not embarrassed. Pull her car. Pull her car, bro. And now you can't go to that talking no more. Yeah, you know what? Nigga, it's my story. It's my story, bro. What's the time they be bluffing, bro? They be bluffing. I ain't gonna front. I ain't taking that chance. Nah, I'm good. I ain't taking that chance. So, what's the worst that could happen if you break the ice? You know what the best is that could happen? I don't say anything. I ain't buying nothing. I ain't buying nothing. Walk right out of here with my groceries. I'm outta here, bro. Yeah, facts. Nah, I think- And I'm only in there to show off my haircut, so- Right. You don't really buy nothing. I ain't buying nothing.

[00:16:29] You just walking through it. I get it. But I feel like a lot of bad blood is fabricated. Right? Mm-hmm. If you think about the issues that people really, really have, Mm-hmm. Compared to issues that really, really matter, Mm-hmm. Shit don't even really be that deep. You know what I'm saying? And I say that- So, like I said, like LA said, it could, to you. No, no. Like if everybody just humanizes themselves for a second and just thinks about it like I do. You see? I can probably say, I don't have many issues with many people.

[00:16:59] I know you gotta bring up the few. Mm-hmm. But think about me on a grand scale. I can't tell you I got bad blood with many people. Mm-hmm. I don't walk around in these streets with my head on a swivel. I don't do that. I'm good. I'm good. I can see a lot of people outside. High five. Whether I don't talk to them no more or whatever. Like, good energy. That's how I like to live my life. Mm-hmm. You feel me? And I feel like most people can, but I feel like there is a personality. There's something that comes with this personality of, yo, not everybody can fuck, get access to me. Mm-hmm.

[00:17:28] Or like, not everybody can talk to me. Like, I'm cool with having a cold shoulder in a certain room. I'm not personally. Think about it, cause you don't know everybody's intentions. You, you gotta peel hard, but you don't know everybody's intentions. And I can't, I can't, I can't give, I can't be as accessible. I love that. Cause you gotta remember there's bad-minded people outside, bro. Absolutely. And you cannot, yo, I learned that the hard way. However, you also can control how much you allow in. Mm-hmm.

[00:17:54] Saying hi to somebody, give them a little pound, head nod, that's nothing, bro. So why hasn't every, anybody like hung out at- Shut up. No, shut up, shut up. Shut up. Nah, I'm being serious. Why hasn't, hasn't everybody hung out at Joe's crib? What you mean? That's a fact. Well hasn't everybody, I've been to, I've been to your crib once. But that's not, that's not because you're not my brother. I've been to your crib more than you've been to my crib. But see, you'll, if you start barbecue, we change the story, we have to change the things. I just feel like, and you got space too.

[00:18:23] You gotta, you gotta built in barbecue. What are you talking about? That has nothing to do with bad blood. I feel like it's just the way our relationships have normalized. I'm talking about access. That's different. I'm talking about access when it comes to that. You pick and choose access. I think maybe East Flatbush might be a little too far. I don't think I would be closed off to that. I feel like you choose, the thing about it is you, is access with you. I'll regroup and think about that. I haven't really thought about that much. I'm not saying you're wrong. I don't really think that. I feel like, I feel like if, let's say we recorded the pot in my crib.

[00:18:53] Like I feel like if that's, like I got nothing but space and nothing but like, I feel like that's something that I would allow. And like, I'm alone a lot, bro. I'm alone a lot. So, I do like my alone time. I know I might not come off of that, but no, it's not, it's not about bad blood at all. No. It's really like, whatever I'm protecting, it's not, it's not from y'all. It's not, none of that. And really, I, not everybody can just walk up in my crib or not everybody can just walk up in East Flatbush. This is also hard to get to. You know what I'm saying? Yeah.

[00:19:20] Now, anybody that, the few that you have bad blood with, how easy is it to rectify that? I don't think it's easy at this stage. I'm still working through it. I don't think I'll be this way forever, but uh. With such a positive mind, why so? My full, I ain't come back here no longer. I ain't come back, pass up! I ain't come back here no longer. You're bad! I'm sorry. You all good? I think, no, I love this.

[00:19:49] I think it's about the way I view the intent. Mm. See, that's, that's, that's what I was just talking about earlier. Because I gotta let that go. Mm. Because the way he view my intent, the way they perceive me, you can't go to a person and try to convince them that you, cause he already got a. Yeah. You already got an image ahead of you. Yeah. And that's what I be dealing with. You did this on purpose. Like, I feel like y'all went through a lot of that shit with me. So, y'all get it? Yeah. I'm still willing to swing on niggas.

[00:20:18] But, I'm relaxed, I'm, I get a little bit more relaxed every, every month. You know what I think sometimes too? Is the, obviously I think the end, not the end all be all, but like, if we, if we prioritize communication a lot more and stop trying to like figure things out in our, in our heads, and actually vocalize what's going through our heads sooner than later. Yeah. Also, time passing too. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm.

[00:20:47] And the heat of things, you may not speak your piece and you let time pass and then the cement of what they think of you dry in their head. It's gonna be hard to like. To move in. Yeah, yeah. You gotta clean that up as soon as. I wanted to circle back on what Don initially started with, right? Cause you were, you were championing the no bad blood because in a sense you were able to benefit from the relationship that you did not burn the bridge to. Mm-hmm. If there's no benefit in. You don't know that.

[00:21:17] But what really. In that moment, you don't know that. You don't know that because. With bad blood, like what's the, what's the benefit from not beefing with the person? I can understand keeping, keeping your distance from somebody if there is truly no benefit Yeah. Or if you can go get that benefit elsewhere. Which you can go get a, you go, you can get hooked up with another job or look from somebody else for sure. But in that sense, you want to keep all those options open. The more the merrier. With friendship and shit like that, bro.

[00:21:45] If a friendship dies, if you're, you're not looking to replace that exact friendship. It kind of just has to die. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? If it's dying or if it's no longer beneficial to y'all. So there's no need to like, there's no need to keep or try to think about not burning that bridge if it needs to be burned. See what I'm saying? Well, my thing is with like, what would be the benefit from like not having bad blood with somebody would be not having that hate in my heart. Okay. That, that, that anger, like that you start feeling that when that person comes around

[00:22:14] and like, we, we, we, we, we saw in the party behind a nigga, Joe just energy changes. Like, oh boy, I don't, I don't want that. I wasn't healed yet. I don't want, I don't want that. I wasn't healed yet. We done been through that so many times in our lives where we seen somebody say, nah, it's on site. What's the point? What's the point? We, we, we, we preaching for peace and all this. I don't, I don't need that. We don't need that, bro. We, we fighting battles in our mind. I ain't gonna fight. I watch a lot of wallow, excuse me. I watch a lot of wallow, so I'm on 10.

[00:22:46] I don't need that. I don't need that. I don't need that. I don't need that. I don't need that. I mean, it is mature. It is mature to sit there and say, you know what? I ain't got no bad blood. You go ahead, man. I ain't gonna got no bad blood. But I ain't gonna front. But as much as I'm preaching to some people, it's like, yo, I understand. I understand that part where it's like, yo, I can't really forgive you yet though. Can you count the amount of enemies y'all got? Enemies? Real shit. Enemies is a, people that's on site, it's like, I just don't, I don't like that guy. Whatever you would do to said enemy, whether it's ignore them, fight them, whatever.

[00:23:16] Enemy? I don't, I don't have a lot of enemies. I probably got one. Strong dislikes? Disgust? Loathe? Okay. That's different. At least it's a male or female? Male. And you know what's funny about that? Cause I think y'all know what we're talking about, right? I feel like it never needed to get there. It never needed to get there. Oh, for sure.

[00:23:44] If you think about the root of the situation, and where it got to, it never needed to get there. It's pride. Wait, what? I'm saying... It never needed to... Nah, you're saying pride, that's what I'm trying to figure out. Oh, yeah, I don't... Pride on his sense. On his side. On his side. On his side. Yeah, he's like... Yeah, he's like... Yeah, he's like... It's pride. Yeah. It's like, I'm not gonna let another nigga get one up on me. I don't care. That's pride, bro. What are we talking about? Can y'all...

[00:24:14] Can we text what we talking about? No, it's... Think about why our individual would take what that situation was and become that type of person to make the situation become... Worse. ...smaller. Now I don't fuck with you at all. Yo, put it on... Put it on... Put it on Joe camera. No, Joe. Put it on Joe. Put it on Joe. And then they're muted. Yes. It's only a person. Yeah. I don't know if it's pride or that. That would strike me as pride, that's just an indecent person. Because after a while, it's like... Yeah, I don't think it had nothing to do with pride, bro.

[00:24:43] After a while, I did you wrong and you kinda made me feel bad about it. It's like, nah, you ain't gonna make me feel bad about myself the fuck outta here. Now I gotta show out. That don't strike me as pride to me. It is pride, bro. Cause pride isn't always good. Like, some niggas, your pride get in their way. And that's... It's possibly getting in this way of being able to step up as a man to be like, yo... I wilded out, my fault. I wilded out, yo, I wasn't... I didn't do that right, yo. My fault. You don't get that? I just think... You ever made a mistake, my nigga?

[00:25:10] I mean, it's a huge flaw in this character. I think that's just how the person is. Ain't no pride... You don't think he ever apologized to anybody before? Like, made a mistake and was like, oh shit, I was wrong? Maybe not. At some point, you gotta understand, you took it too far. Yeah, yeah, yeah. You took it too far. Yeah, yeah. But the thing about it is like, just to have that knowledge and create that bad... That friction is kinda insane to me. It's like, yo, I'ma keep pushing it. I'ma keep pushing it. It's like... You don't wanna solve this. You just wanna make shit worse.

[00:25:40] Yeah. Until somebody get hurt. And to take it there is kinda crazy. I'm watching... Right now, I'm currently watching my homie go back and forth with somebody else on the internet. And I'm watching it, and I wanna just call her and be like, you know this is not unnecessary, but I also know he... When he gets into his feelings, he just gonna... Can't stop it. He can't, can't stop. But, you know... You gotta have niggas pass through. He also says, like, he's above this. You gotta prove that you above this if you're gonna...

[00:26:07] If you above it, stop responding. Stop doing it. What would being above it look like? Not acknowledge. Turn another cheek? 100%. I ain't gonna lie, but I ain't got so many cheeks, brother. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Pause or not, bro. That's crazy, though. Niggas said turn another cheek. I'm like, I can't, bro. Some shit you can't let go, bro. Oh, man. Certain shit you can't let go, bro. I understand that. So if you can't let it go, don't say that you can. Don't say that you were moving above. Don't say that you... I'm kidding. You know what I'm saying?

[00:26:37] Certain times, it's like people take your kindness for weakness. It's like, alright, I can get over with this. I'm gonna keep going. I don't think niggas is even being kind in this sense. I just feel like it's pride and ego. A lot of it. I think, I think, uh, if we talk about the origin of it. The episode. Mm-hmm. The fact that Don, in his opinion, felt like he was done dirty. Yeah. At his job. And most people would be like, to hell with you. Mm-hmm. Fuck you. You know what I'm saying? But you go out and leave, you know?

[00:27:07] I take your decision. It's like the... It's like when you get that rejection letter from a job application, and you respond, well, if there's any openings... Facts. Or suck my knowledge. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Fuck y'all. But sometimes you would want to say that. You know what I'm saying? Every time I went to. Especially if they put you through the whole hiring process, and you did all the... Seven interviews, I'll be fucking eating. All the interviews and all of that, just for them to tell you no, and you still leave with a smile and grace and say, hey, you know... Yeah. Thank you for your time. I appreciate it. Thank you for your time. I appreciate it.

[00:27:38] That's commendable. Mm-hmm. Every member of the staff at Asylum Record, bro. I kid you not, bro. I couldn't let that shit go for a very long time, bro. But see, that I didn't understand because not every member of that staff had made that decision. Yeah. One person made that decision. I had an issue with every member of the staff who had a hand in making the decisions.

[00:28:08] For sure. So my thing is you had a... Oh, I was so mad. So why didn't you have any, like, anger or anything towards, like, Wayno? Why did... Wayno... You know why? Because when Wayno left, he called me personally. Yo, Kojo, I just wanna let you know. I'm moving on to a different company. It's a pleasure working with you. I see you at the future of this... All of that. He gave me that courtesy. Anybody who left before that shit happened, did it with grace and solid.

[00:28:38] And I was kind of pushed into this place of me, Kiana and Ashley. We just felt like we was... Oh, they was pushing us to be the next leaders of this label. Didn't push you out? All because I want more for myself. Which you guys have seen the email and all that shit. So, like, it was weird. So I really held a lot of that, bro. It's to the point where I had... I went... Hold on to the question. I won't say the gentleman's name, right? Yeah, I'm gonna write that down.

[00:29:06] I won't say the gentleman's name who gave me the call that was letting me know that I was let go. But he was the person that was like... I looked too for all guidance when I first got there. He was very close with my cousin, my first cousin. So I felt like there was a connection there. And he was like... Oh, he was the first person to kind of put his arm around me at the company and let me know how things work. So for him to be the one to break the news, I understand why he had to be the one. He had to be the one. I know it wasn't gonna be the big dogs. It was gonna be him, right? Even though he's a big dog, it was like, nah, you guys, you know, bet. You call me.

[00:29:33] But the way it was done, it was like, yo, bro, not only do you know that... You know my birthday's next week. But why are you calling me on our regular calls? Like where we do our regular, like this is what... A check-ins type shit to do this. You know what I'm saying? I feel like you'd have felt the pain regardless of your birthday. You feel like you took it too personal and it was business? It was blindsiding. I guess being let go from your position is always gonna be blindsiding. Okay.

[00:29:59] However, I feel like there is space and opportunity to let somebody know that, okay, this is the decision being made. Don't make me feel like this is a regular day at work and I'm doing the regular work thing. It's like they make you come in for your shift and then fire you at that end. And then slot like you just... Really, bro? What am I supposed to do after this call is my question. I'm not supposed to continue doing work. Like should I keep working, my nigga? Like what? That's not what this was for. So that's really what fucked me up about it. You know what I'm saying? I don't think I got into the discussion of what happened at PBS.

[00:30:27] So this is a few months after I got let go at Revolt. And my supervisor knew this. She knew I was going through shit like a breakup or whatever the fuck was going on. So to know all that, and she was like, yo, bro, we're gonna let you go around in October. But she told you ahead of time though, right? She gave me a few, like a month. I was like, all right, cool. But the market didn't help. It didn't hit at that time. So then even having a discussion. The only thing that kind of made it better after having a conversation with her and all

[00:30:57] of that, like a few months ago, a few weeks ago, well, she was like, yo, they try to replace you with this young person. They didn't notice how much work you did. You get triggered. Please stop. Which is crazy. I didn't know we was going to top that in because when you told me that story, I put it in the notes back then. They went, they didn't want me. Now here, here. We don't have to go too much into it, but. Um, but uh. Asylum doesn't exist anymore. What happened?

[00:31:27] Your phone. Oh, no, that's fine. Ain't nothing. He said his phone not lit right now. Yo, this nigga is crazy. All right, so show us, nigga. Fuck out here. It's my message. I'm texting myself. It's in the notes now. Um, I wanted to say, I want, I want, wait, Kojo saying that, right? Mm-hmm. What if somebody wanting more for themselves means that they got to let go of you? Fuck it. Let me go then, nigga. You ain't, you ain't handle it like that. Ooh. Hold up.

[00:31:56] What you trying to say, nigga? What? Wanting more for themselves. Get the fuck out of here, nigga. I'm the best nigga walking, nigga. I play with you, nigga. You know what I mean? Know who I am. You know who the fuck out of here. You see who I am, nigga? You see who I am? Fuck that, nigga. That's how, that's how. It was a terrible, greedy decision, nigga. Fuck outta here. But I, no, but I'm saying, no joke aside, I get what you mean. Yeah. I do get what you mean. Like, what if, what if somebody like, yo, I want more for myself. This relationship that we have is holding me back.

[00:32:25] It's no bad blood, but I have to, I have to let this go. You know what's funny? You can't leave it. You know what's, you know what's saying? My fault, my fault was Kucho, you know what's funny? I was literally just having this conversation with my mans. I said, yo, I might have to stop fucking with one of my mans, because he's doing shit I can't agree with. Mm-hmm. And I just need better in my life. Mm-hmm. Like, he getting like super drunk, doing certain shit, like just outlandish shit. It's like, I can't be a part of that. I can't associate. I can't. Yeah. Like, I want more for my life. The people I'm around, I want them to inspire me. This nigga not inspire me, bro.

[00:32:55] Like, I want some type of, some type of something, bro. Like, I'm just like, I can't do this no more. It's like, how do I break this news to this person? I'll let you know, like, bro, I don't. If you just fade away from them, is that passive aggressive? LD. Yeah, because you're going to continue to do what you're doing. I want you to, I want you, if you're my man still, I love you to death, I still want you to grow. So why not tell him that? I'm going to tell you. This is like, how do I, how do I say this though? You just can't be around for the growth. That's the thing though. That's the thing though.

[00:33:24] Which would also, there's a pain to that too, right? That's why people hold on. There's a pain to that because you have faith. You believe now you're going to change. Something's going to change. Right now you was down bad, but something's going to change. You want to stick around for it. But the more you stick around, the more you hurt yourself. Yeah, more, yeah. But you know it's coming. You have, you believe, believe, believe, believe. So then you be stuck like, do I stay here or do I just, I got to let this die because you care more about yourself and your wellbeing than theirs. Because you ultimately do. I think we all do. Mm-hmm. So that's the tough part.

[00:33:55] Pfft. Holding on, holding on to somebody in your life that you know just might, when you let them go they gonna cook the way they supposed to cook and you want to be there, you want to be there for the cooking. Sometimes you can't. If you want to receive it then, cause we talking about like the deliverer of bad news or the deliverer of no bad blood, but I come to you and I'm like, yo, Don, like, no bad blood, but I don't, I don't think I can grow this pod with you anymore.

[00:34:24] You see, I think the problem is saying that statement. Just saying. I mean, if you say no bad blood it makes you feel like, you know what? I want to be there, right? But now. Nigga said, fuck it. Isn't that telling the person you know hard feelings? Now you hold on, it's no hard feelings. You can say no hard feelings. That's like you saying, yo, not respectfully. Okay. I want to present this. How about being able to explain no hard feelings with the words that you say? Instead of like, preface it. It's a claim. Like, yeah, no hard feelings. I think that makes it better.

[00:34:52] I feel like if we are able to articulate the realness in our statements and the why, why we're saying this, why we're doing this, you don't really need to preface it by saying, Hey, no bad blood, but. But I feel like we're saying something like that. Like, yeah, no bad blood is like, I'm gonna say this with my chest a little bit, but I'm not trying to cradle you. Yeah. Cause when you say it, when you say it without that, it's like, hey bro, but um, man, you know, I know we had some great times.

[00:35:21] I love you to death, man. Like, but. I love that. You know, I love all that you've done for the company. Yeah. But you know, we're going in a different direction. Why? You need the why? I need the why. You're not. I ain't gonna like the why. You need the why. That's putting a mirror in front of you. Do you need the why with everything? That's what my prayer was for. Yeah. Cause I, I do want to know why. You want the why, but. So my prayer is that. Is the why gonna make you happy though? Yeah. If I was Don's friend who was kinda not helping him elevate because of my terrible habits

[00:35:51] and shit like that, I would need the why. Let me know. Put the mirror in front of me. Let me know why I'm losing one of my best friends. But imagine. Tell me. They're not gonna understand, oh, there's no bad blood. This thing actually loves me. And that's why he's doing it. What if I say this is a continuous conversation we have to have? Mm-hmm. This is my last time having the conversation. I'm just beating to myself. Yeah, you know. I feel you. I feel you. I feel you, brother. So, but what. But if I know I'm not the problem and I know you're doing this for another reason? But the thing about is would the why make it any better? Yes.

[00:36:19] Cause we talking about, you said the why is a mirror. It's also, it's a spinning mirror. Mm-hmm. When I turn it around, you have to look at yourself too. Tell the nigga why you doing this. Please. Have a reason. I don't think I had to look at myself at all. No, I'm not saying you. I'm just saying though. Be able. If you tell me what you're doing wrong, if you flip it on like, oh, but you're doing this. No, no, no, no. That's not the flip one. The flip is you solidifying why you're saying what you're saying to that person. Mm-hmm. Yeah. If you're wrong, people are not going to like it.

[00:36:49] Then it becomes a defense. Now even, okay, even with the why, right? Mm-hmm. If the person is done, like done, the why is only going to continue the conversation. Right? So say I'm done with you, Joe. Niggas don't know how to close convos? What's up? Talk to me. Bro, that opens a room more. Say I'm done with you, but you want the why. Mm-hmm. Now you may advocate, you may not just accept the why you're going to explain, right? Or you say, I'm telling you this, for no response. That's it.

[00:37:18] I don't want to hear it. What? Just tell me straight, bro. You ain't my pappy? What are you doing like that for? I'm done. I'm not going to explain to you. Yeah, but look. I'm talking so I could be heard. Yeah, I don't need a response. I feel like that hurts. That hurts even more, then. Where is that going to go? I'm not going to lie. Fuck the bad blood. We going to... That is bad blood. Somebody's going to see blood, nigga. That is bad blood right there. I don't need a response, man. I don't need a response. It's like, so you don't want to hit me out? You're done. You're really done, man. Yes. I love you.

[00:37:49] I'm like, yes. Don't be done with me, then. Tell me you love me. Yeah. Don't do that. I love you. I'm done. I love you. If I'm done. It's some evil shit. It's... But this is not supposed to be pretty, bro. But... That's true. But... That's true. You got to understand the person you're talking to. And that will be the deciding factor as if there's going to be bad blood or not. Because, like I said, you bring it back into Target, bro. That same person who gave you that realness and told you why they're making that decision.

[00:38:19] When they see you in Target, they definitely still saying, Yo, what up? No, they not. They dab it. Bro, that person you talk... That's why I don't know how... What does bad... What does... Alright, words mean... Nigga, if you cut a friendship off and you tell them you won't get told and you see that same nigga that you had to cut off, and they looking better, you're not going to be like, Yo, what up? Good to see you, my brother. Yes. It don't got to be a long drawn out convo. But being able to acknowledge somebody's presence is an acknowledgement of, oh, there is no bad blood here. You listening now? I'm listening. It says, There is no animosity or hostility between people. And it implies that the past conflict

[00:38:49] or negative feelings have been resolved. And there is now a positive or at least a neutral relationship. This is a kicker though. Now, exactly. Ooh. Because I could walk away from this, Yo, there's no bad blood. When I see Don, I could walk up to him, What's up? But then I woke up to Don... Matter of fact, Matter of fact, we all saw Love Island, right? And Ace stood behind Huda for the elimination. Yeah. And she tried to hold his hand, and he was like, Nah, fuck outta here. You know what I'm saying?

[00:39:18] But there's still bad blood even though they made a decision had to be made. Yeah. So, just because... She thought it was okay to reach out, but... Yeah. It gotta be a... Yeah, resolve is on both two sides. There's no one way resolve. And with the lack of... Well, I won't even say lack of communication. Maybe with the lack of acceptance on how things turned out, Mm-hmm. That may interfere with the resolution. Because if you can't accept what's going on, Mm-hmm.

[00:39:45] Then how are you gonna be able to resolve it internally and then operate in the space where you don't hold on to that animosity? Right. So I could see... Somebody could cut me off for whatever reason, and I see them, and I just walk past them as if I... They may be shocked like, Damn, like... I thought I did the right thing by letting him know that, you know, I'm not interested or whatever. But I walk past, blah, blah, blah, and they be like... They be like, Damn, right? You couldn't speak? Nah, I didn't resolve it within myself. Yeah. So that's why I'm... You gotta respect it.

[00:40:16] First, yes. Yes, respect it. You said there's no bad blood, so don't start creating bad blood if I'm not healed yet. Oh, niggas... Oh, niggas moving funny. Right, I'm not moving funny. I'm not ready yet. Sorry, no bad blood yet. Yeah, yeah, I got you. Oh, for you. I'm coming. I'm coming. Just wait for me. I got you. Like, it gotta be that way. Yeah. You can't expect everybody to be on your wavelength. You know what I'm saying? So if I'm healed and I'm chilling, yeah, maybe I might get curved and target. But I gotta be okay with that if I'm the one who created this separation. You know what's crazy? I'm thinking about all the people

[00:40:45] I had bad blood with at some point. A young lady I used to talk to. Like, I seen her at a party one time. Like, I broke it off or whatever. Um, we had her on the pod one time. Okay. Um, broke it off. She was at a party. I'm like, what's up? She looked at me and rolled her eyes. I said, oh. Later on in the night, she pulled me to the side and started cursing me out. Uh-huh. She ain't, yeah, cause it's still- I said, oh, you- You know what's crazy. It's just like two years later.

[00:41:15] I said, I ain't gonna find no point in my face. She was just sitting there like this and just talking to me. I was like, alright. I understand both sides of that. I'm crying. As a person who may take forever to heal, right? Or take their time. Don't talk to me. How I know? Cause you cut- Don't, alright, are we gonna act like our actions don't leave an impact? Oh no, no, don't do that. Yeah, and then so that- So if I cut you off, right?

[00:41:43] I can't, in my mind I can't be like, are they good now? Did they recover? You know what I'm saying? What if their no bad blood means their new boundary is, yo, don't speak to me. There's no bad blood. Yeah. Don't speak to me. So is that a reason- So you, you speaking to them may have trickered her like, yo, why do you think we cool? You can hurt me, but then, nigga, no. So is that a reason to hold on to someone? Hold on to someone? So you don't have to deal with any of that? Mmm. Mmm. Alright, we gonna tell the truth.

[00:42:14] This the public part. Just letting you know this. I don't like it, I don't like it. He basically said it. Can we save this for Thursday? I don't want no enemies, so I'll, you know, I'll just, you know, I'll stick around and- I mean, okay, so- Do all the rough and tough. I'll, I'll, I'll be graded. I won't go all the way in. Okay. I'll, I would say that there are times where I've held on for maybe an easier drop. Damn.

[00:42:43] But you weren't, you wouldn't, you wouldn't be yourself. So like, so like, as a person, as a flight attendant, right? Mmm. There are- Thanks for your service. Appreciate it. There are different oxygen levels. So like, if, if like, say for example, the mass drop down. Depending on how high you are in the air or how fast you're descending, depends on how much time you have to put on that mass. Mmm. So you may have five seconds before you pass out. Or if we're, if it's a compression drop, maybe you have at least 20 seconds.

[00:43:10] Or if it's a, or maybe we closer to the ground, you may have a full five minutes before, you know? Mmm. So if we're, so say, say, say I have no bad blood, but you're going through a rough time. Mmm. I don't want to add to that. So I may hold on a little bit longer so my drop ain't hurt you. You add to the. Yeah. So that's, that's just me. I don't want to add on to this rough path that you in. It's a man of service right there. So I may hold on and maybe with me holding on something may change.

[00:43:41] You know what I'm saying? Maybe your ways will change. Maybe you're just going through a rough time and you can't, you know, sometimes people, people that go through a rough time eternally, they show it and the person closest to them feel the wrath of that. And all the pain on them. So maybe, maybe, so maybe let's hypothetically say I have a girlfriend and she lost her job and I'm getting the wrath of her meanness, whatever, but I can't take it no more.

[00:44:09] But then something else happens to her. She. Stops her toe on the side of the toe. Yeah. And that was the day I was going to say I can't do this no more. But now she like this, her toe hurting and her bank account hurting. I don't want to add to that. So I'm not her heart hurting. Not her heart hurting. Right. But then maybe that was a Tuesday and my Friday. She got to call. Hey, we're giving you a new job. And now her toe still kind of fucked up. But like, she's in the mirror, Harlow's shaking.

[00:44:37] She, you know, she's like, you know, things are going to turn around. Mm-hmm. You see, ain't holding off for a couple of days. So, would you call that, okay. Would you call that holding off or would you call that just faith? Just having faith. A little patience, man. I think holding on sometimes, like, it comes with a, especially if you care, comes with a little faith. Let me tell you, the bad blood gon' come if you cut off after that toe, that toe incident. I promise you that. Yeah. Ain't no fixing that. Yeah, so. You left me when I was down. That too. You bitch ass nigga. That too.

[00:45:07] You don't, you kind of don't want that on your conscience neither. Cause you would want somebody to help be there for you if you're down. So, I think before I cut somebody off or I know bad blood them, I think about the space, the overall space that me and the person is in. Mm-hmm. And if this, if it's not the right time, then you know. Well, there's honestly never a right time unless. It's always the right, there's always the right time to say goodbye.

[00:45:36] Thanks Chris. As you know. Yeah. There you go. That's every way. But yeah, so like if you do it, if you do it with grace. And then sometimes the interesting. There was a time where, uh, you may think, oh man, damn, I need to, we need to go our separate ways. And then you talk to them and you're like, you know, I was thinking the same thing too. Whoa. And they was just waiting for the, that somebody was waiting for somebody to say it first. Oh, then it's definitely no bad blood, right? Yeah, facts. What up gang? Yeah, facts. Get the fuck out.

[00:46:06] But that's the resolution. That, whoa, whoa. We both. That's mass resolution. You still got to deal with whatever separation happens. You get in front like that shit. We already, we probably already fucking thought about it now. Oh really? We both are mentally, we both mentally checked out. Yeah, facts. And somebody, somebody said it first. Maybe a little work needs to be done. It can't, y'all can't just think. I mean yeah, it's going, but alright, if we, we, we, we each other all the time. It's like alright. I'm done with a new nigga. Yeah, nigga. That's the real test. Yeah. Yeah. You know what's crazy? I was talking to. I got some fine shit on my arm.

[00:46:36] I was talking to, um. Oh, my rose, my rose, my fat, my four. Uh, Deshawn's son's birthday party. Shout out to Deshawn. Shout out to Deshawn. Um, I was, I was at this barbecue and um, my man's girl was there. Uh, and we was talking, we was talking. She asked, she asked me about a particular ex. I was like, yo, shorty could pop out pregnant, new man. Wouldn't care.

[00:47:05] Wouldn't care. I would probably be like, God to be the glory, you know what I'm saying? I wouldn't, it wouldn't. Thank God it ain't me. No? Yo, see. I took a duval, I took a duval. Yo, once a week. Went too fucking far. Once a week, Joe go do it. I'm sorry, yo. Yo, bro. I don't, bro, but I'll give it to Joe. Sometimes she don't be meaning it. I know, I'm sorry. All right, my man. That'd be the funniest part. Yeah, the nigga so innocent. It's like, what the fuck did I do this time?

[00:47:32] So, so, I, I said it wouldn't, it wouldn't faze me at all. I used to say that about, but that's how I know like I'm fully like, it's like, it's really no bad blood. Like, I don't want nothing bad for you. You know what I'm saying? I wish you all the best in life, peace and prosperity. You know what I'm saying? And more pregnancy. Yeah. Facts. Absolutely. You know what I'm saying? So you can have something to show for. Peace be on the earth. From God our Father and our Lord Jesus Christ. Oh my God. You know what I'm saying? But, nah, I think.

[00:48:02] I'd say you don't get high, bro. I think, uh. It's high here. But that, I think, it's all internal though. Mm-hmm. You was able to, you handled it really well. Like, you handled it because I. I wanted to crash out so bad. Yeah. And that restraint from crashing. Because sometimes, you don't know, that crash out could cause multiple things. Mm-hmm. And when you reckless, you don't know how many other things you are impacting. So your crash out would have just been your frustration of being let go and not, and somebody not seeing

[00:48:32] your value. Right? And then, but then, you say you did crash out. How many months later you were able to hit them back up and say, you know, hey, if there's any opportunities for us to still work together, let me know. That benefited your pocket. But that moment that crash out, you ain't thinking about that. Yeah. Funny part is though, sure that wanting me to get fired ain't there no more. I said, ah. And I said this to my old man. I said, yo, God is good, ain't he? She's like, yeah, I'm not gonna lie.

[00:49:01] I got her job now. That's crazy. Mm-hmm. I said, you moved up to us. I love that for you. She said, yeah, I'm gonna get you some good bread. I appreciate that. So I think, I think, um, I think that's a lesson for everybody to like, take the high road, even, even, even in, when it, when it matters. And, um, I even think about, uh, how I'm gonna pod going forward. Mm. Cause sometimes I pod with bad blood. Mm. Even though it makes for great content. Yeah.

[00:49:31] You know what I'm saying? Like, I may, I may pod in a moment where I feel, sometimes I try not to bleed on the pod. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. But if there's something going on, that I'm, sometimes, and we don't always tell each other the topic. Yeah. So we talk about it in real time. Yeah. And I kind of funnel my ideas out. Through conversation. Through conversation. Through the conversation. But then, say the person hears it. Mm-hmm. And they like, oh, wait. Oh, you talking about me. Right.

[00:50:01] So, now going forward, I'ma, I'ma make sure that it's really no bad blood. Mm-hmm. Just navigate around it. Just navigate around it. Cause like I always said, I don't want to bleed on the pod. Mm-hmm. But it may be entertaining for some, but somebody else. Is that entertainment for all those other people worth the new animosity that I may not have for that one particular person? You know? Mm-hmm. Especially if I cared about that person. Okay. Then it's like, dang. You know what I'm talking about? You know what I'm saying? No, put it on Kojo.

[00:50:31] Then Kojo over here laughing. Oh, I love what the good guys are. Yo. So, so even then you learn in real time, like, all right, we may do an episode and I'm talking about from my POV on how I felt and how that person's actions made me feel. And now I made a conversation out of it. Them hearing it may think, oh, however they interpret it, and now they're left with that. Mm-hmm.

[00:50:57] So then when we then have that, now when I speak to them as if everything is regular, or I what up? I heard what you said. Then I gotta deal with that. Mm-hmm. And then, and I hear their POV, but they didn't say it in the moment when the pod came out. So like I said earlier, the cement done dry. So now, oh, this is who LaShawn really is. Yeah. Sheesh. So now I gotta, you know, so now... Dangerous game. Very dangerous, especially, it's very, it's only dangerous if you care about your intent. Mm-hmm. Like if I didn't give a fuck how that person perceived it, then it's not dangerous.

[00:51:51] Mm-hmm. You don't really care about how that hurt me. You just trying to fix how your rep looks in my eyes, so you got more people thinking you good than bad. Mm-hmm. So... Thinking is crazy though. Like if you a good person, you're a good person. It's not people thinking that. That's a, that's just not good language. Mm. If I'm a good person, I am. Fuck it. Mm. So if I'm, if, forgive me for trying to protect the fact that I'm a good person. But that, okay, so when you say that, to them it may translate, you're only trying

[00:52:20] to protect that. Fuck my feelings. Oh yeah, you got to do something. You're only trying to protect your, your rep. And that's not what I be trying to do. Right. I'm trying to at least show you, hey, from the pure standpoint, from the inception of how I felt, mm-hmm, got lost in the sauce towards the end. Mm-hmm. So let me at least try to clean that up, clean that mess away so you can still see the purity. Right. Sometimes the, the blood is too bad for that to, you know what I'm saying?

[00:52:49] Then you, you know, you get unfollowed and shit like that. Yep. What's a good guy? Don Peasley. I'm done. I'm done. You can always come back though. Sometimes, sometimes it's good to leave shit where it's at. Sometimes it's good to leave shit where it's at. And I'm talking about from the, from the other person's perspective. They may not want to give you another chance to, to, to, to fix, fix, fix, but. And sometimes I'm gonna keep it a buck with you.

[00:53:18] When you fuck up with somebody, sometimes you don't want, you shouldn't want a second chance neither. That's too much work, man. No, not even that. You not even getting the same person back. Nigga said, go in the corner. Go, go, go do something. Go do something. So you, you, ah, you fucked up a good thing, right? You met somebody, they guard down. Ooh. They with the shits. They were going with the flow. You fucked that up. But they give you a second chance. Now they guard up. They don't even feel the same. Like if you ain't never getting that person back. So sometimes you. Well, never say never.

[00:53:48] You're too optimistic. It's just gonna take a little longer. It's just gonna take a little longer. It's just gonna take a little longer. You're too optimistic. The sounds of blackness over here. They open the door again, bro. Yeah, they changed the decorations around the house a little bit. But the amount of work you have to put in, bro, is really worth it. Yeah, bro, but you can always fix the furniture, man. Trust me, that shit, them shits is not, they not glued to the floor. You picking up that couch by yourself, brother. Sometimes. But that's why you gotta go to the gym, do the work. Tell me that. I got an analogy for anything, son. Trust me. Trust me. Nigga making a gym analogy like he in the gym.

[00:54:17] I'm saying, listen. I'm pissing off. If the door opens again, you could always move the furniture back around, bro. I'm telling you. And I mean that literally and figuratively. Ba-dum-boo. I'm gonna end this in. Yo, you already know what it is, man. It's Don the Camera Guy, a.k.a. Don Peasley. You can follow me at StayFocusLA on Instagram and Twitter. Don't forget to like, comment, and subscribe. All things What's A Good Guy coming out every Monday at 8 a.m. On whatsagoodguy.com. Patreon.

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