Episode 322: Keep It To Yourself

[00:00:00] Should Have Had Some Gummies We Ready? Yeah, We Ready? You Already Know This Motherfuckers, Love As Always Donald Peasley Alongside of LaShawn Have A Beautiful Day Here, Man. Shout out to Y'all for Like, Comment, Subscribe and do everything I do every week. We do appreciate you. Bless, Bless, Give Thanks to the Most High for Another Day to be Talking with the Fellas and to have Y'all here. What's going on? How's Everybody Feeling? It's Your Go, Bro. Start it up.

[00:00:30] Yes, Sir. Rosebud throwing on these Motherfuckers. My Rose of the Week, Hitting 205. Hey, Shit Me. Looking Sexier Than Ever. I Appreciate it, Y'all. Body Defined. Y'all Probably Won't See Me in Anything besides the Sweaterhead. Nigga Posted it to Close Friends. I'm like, Nah, Nigga, Fuck That. Nigga Said Show The World! Show The World! Put that on Front Street, Bro! I don't want the whores to get excited, Man. You can Fight Them Off. We Strong Black Men. We Fight off a Lot of Things, Man. Yeah, You're right. You're right. Nigga Ain't Lying.

[00:01:00] But, um... I'm like, Nigga Lookin' Chisel. I appreciate it. I got a shout out to my nigga Malcolm, Man. Malcolm was like, Yo, You gotta Cut Up. You gotta Cut Up. Nigga, You been fuckin' Boking for... Shout out to Malcolm, Bro. Yeah, He ain't Postin' in a Minute, So... Yeah, Nah, Every Time Malcolm Get Quiet, I hit him up. Just to Make Sure He Good. I Usually Talk To Him Every Other Week. Um, I know He's doing a Cut Too, but, um... That's my Rose for the week. Um, Thorn for the week, um... No butt? Yeah, Of Course There's a Good Butt. He wants to add on a butt. I want to add on a butt. Yeah, What?

[00:01:29] I thought it was Rose Butt Thorn. It is, but you know, you can do your thing. Alright. Thorn's literally me just tired this week. Um, I had to start drinking coffee again. Mm. That shit. I had to do a shoot. Um, but yeah, that was basically my thorn. My thorn isn't nothing crazy. Um, my bud. Yo, you're so annoying, bro. Who, LA? Yes. Um, my bud, what I'm looking forward to.

[00:01:59] Two things I'm looking forward to. I'm looking forward to 195. Um, 195 pounds. Also, looking forward to the barbecues this summer, man. I mean, LA just had a conversation about something about that. Yeah, we got something cooking up, no pun intended. Uh, you might start a close friends for the what's a good guy page. So if you see yourself in there, that's your invite. Yeah. That's it. Yo, let me, uh, let me, let me spark the grill. Y'all told me. I don't know if we told you anything. Y'all did.

[00:02:27] You said, I remember you said put the coal in like a triangular little joint, like a mountain, you know what I'm saying? And then I could throw a little lighter fluid on there. Like LeBron. This nigga's a pyro. Like I ain't bringing them nowhere. Um, but yeah, that's basically it. What I'm looking forward to. Summertime, 195. Um, yeah. It's gonna be a, it's gonna be a good, good, good summer. Yeah. Pretty chill week for me.

[00:02:51] For me, uh, my rose, uh, I had an amazing week and it was capped off by an amazing event that we threw, uh, bartender by Wingstop. It was a success, a success. Um, damn. I didn't even, I didn't honestly didn't, I didn't know what to expect, but I kind of knew it was going to be a success already. Like just because of my experience with throwing events, I just felt like I just knew that we had it all together and shout out to everybody who helped put it together. Um, it was a great experience.

[00:03:21] Everybody got their chicken. Line was wrapped around the block. Shout out to the Korean chicken. Shout out to the spicy Korean Q. Yeah, man. It's crazy. And all that time, I probably ate like four tenders in two days. I couldn't, I didn't have really much time cause I was doing a lot of like running around, getting content. Um, but yeah, it was, it was, that was so fulfilling. Um, my first event at Vayner. So, uh, it was just, it was, it was good. Was Bossman there? Nah, he didn't stop. Well, Bossman of Wingstop was there. Okay. He came day one.

[00:03:51] He, he left excited. He gave me a high five on the way out. Like he was, he was happy. So that was good to see. I knew I hired a good one. Nah, he had nothing to do with hiring me, but like he don't, he remembers me and me on that first meeting call that I had with him. Yeah. With them. And, um, he was, he was happy to see you. He was showing me like, you know, okay. We had just opened a Wingstop location in Kuwait too. That same week we had a launch party. And he was like, it's nothing like this right there. Like he was, he was so happy to be in New York. So. Kuwait is crazy. Yeah. I know that's reach, but, um, yeah. So shout outs to that.

[00:04:21] That's, that was my, my. When you have Ross there, let me know. Yeah. I was just talking to somebody about that. I don't think Ross is like a brand ambassador for Wingstop anymore. Like he probably, he probably kicked it off, but he's not, I don't think he does any dealings with it. Like right now. He still owns them joints, right? He got a couple with his sister. Possibly some ownership in, in, in some, in some spots. Um, but right now for like, I think like JID, um, big extra plug, more younger acts they focused on. So, um. That's so dope. Announcing some new, some new athletes soon too.

[00:04:49] Some new athletes got joined, joined the team this week. So. Remember you got an, um, NDA though. Yeah. I didn't say nothing, you know, just some new partnerships, but yeah, that was, uh, that was, that was cool. Um, I do actually, I actually do have a thorn this week. Not necessarily, my thorn is for people who complain. Mm. Um, I'm not a complainer. Like that's one thing I ain't gonna do, man. Like I think complaining is natural for humans, but like, I think, I also think complaining

[00:05:18] should be isolated and short. Mm. When they're met with any kind of adversity. You on the wrong number. All they want to do, all they want to do is complain. Mm-hmm. Complain. I feel like they lean into complaining and it's just like, yo, aight, yo, let's just get it done. So, it was, it was some complaining going on around me this week that I just didn't need because I was so focused on like. Finishing what you need to finish. Finishing what you having a good week. Yeah. I ain't trying to ask shit. Keep that energy away from you. Right, right, right. Yeah.

[00:05:48] I'm not, I'm, I don't, I'm not a panicker. That's the other part. I'm like, I don't panic. If, if things are like going wrong, like I'm not, I'm not ready to panic. I kind of, I know things are fixable and changeable. So, that energy just be ticking me off sometimes, but I'm not complaining about it. I'm just here to say that I was a bit of a thorn in my side. Mm-hmm. Um, and my bud, I am looking forward to this Vibes Cartel concert tonight. Okay. Quanee, I know you went yesterday, please. Yo, you don't like no type of spoilers. I don't like no spoilers.

[00:06:16] I ducked every story possible. It was a lot. Yo, all of Brooklyn was in that bitch yesterday, so I don't know who gonna be in there today. But, uh, very excited. Shout out to World Boss. Um, yeah, man. I think it's exciting to see a serial killer. There's actually, uh, if you lift up that black bag, there's a white bag here for you. For me? Yeah. I already know what this is. GUMMY!

[00:06:44] Yo, you shoulda got the wild berry flavors, man, so I get my grape on, but nah, I appreciate it, bro. Yeah, no problem. Know what I'm saying? That's the Albanese. This is for the rich folk. This is for the rich folk. This is like the classy one. This is the classic. You know what I mean? I'm eating these on camera today. I was actually trying to, the flavors that I produced, I was actually trying to see if I could get them manufactured. Shout out to Haribo, man. Yo, send a sponsorship, man. Yo, fax! That'd be lit, though. That'd be crazy! That'd be lit. Come on, man.

[00:07:14] What's a good guy, gubby? What's a good guy? You got the gold? You know what I'm saying? You're already halfway there. Let's do it. Let's do it. Let's do it. What about you, Ellen? Rose. Shout out to my mom. Today's her birthday. Hey! Shout out to your mom. Hey, birthday, mama. Yeah, fact. Shout out to my mother's birthday. We've came a long way. I spoke to her early this morning. The other day, her and I was just chatting my regular shit.

[00:07:44] And I was like, yo, maybe me moving out was for the best. Cause we ain't never really talked like this before. So, and we was just really talking about casual shit. And I was like, you know, if somebody would have told me, I'd have called you two weeks ago about what I told you about, and you was on my side. Nah. Nah, nah. But listen, she was like, you know, she just hoped that we stay in a good place and hopefully

[00:08:12] my mom lives long enough so I can enjoy the, we can have more good years than we did bad years. And I'll be okay with that, you know? Hopefully, cause I never wanted, as much as I love my mother, I was not happy with like the space that we were in. And I always prayed that like she lived long enough for me to see her, for us to be good. So the fact that we good right now, I'm a, I'm a count those. That's, that's my biggest role. Yeah. That's in the universe. I love that though.

[00:08:39] Um, but something I'm looking forward to, um, when the money is right, bro, I'm looking forward to when I get paid and I got worried about no bills. Like the bills is like, I can enjoy my check for the most, you know, the standardized bills that you need to live, rent and all that stuff, blah, blah, blah.

[00:09:04] But like under the unnecessary debt that I'm trying to get rid of, I'm like, damn, I just want to shop. I can't wait to shop. That's what I look forward to, to go and shop it again. I'm looking forward to shopping, nigga. I look forward to going shopping. Um, and what was my thorn? No thorn. No thorn this year. Yeah, nigga. That's a good week. Matter of fact, it wasn't a thorn, it was my fault. I did some dumb ass shit. I locked myself out. Again? Nah, it's nigga. It's nigga, bro.

[00:09:35] But the crazy shit about it, the way I had, when the nigga delivered the gummies, right Oh my God. Oh my God. When he delivered Kojo snacks. That's good, bro. That's better. The way he placed the bag, he had placed it like right at my door. So you went out a little bit more, you went out a little bit further. Yeah. This nigga live a life with a sitcom, man. Fucking sitcom ass shit, yo.

[00:10:05] Nigga, hill, nigga, hill, nigga, hill. My hill moved a little bit and then I heard the doors go, doof. I'm like, uh uh, super he came. So what's your, what is your, what is your plan of action to make sure that don't happen again? You see another way the door is right now? Yeah. I'm gonna keep it like that till it's time for me to go to sleep. That's the only, it's time for me to go to sleep. Nah, that's it. That was, I had a good week, work week, was calm. Uh, did a one to one. Not too bad. Was in Austin, was in Kansas.

[00:10:36] Shout outs to, uh, one of my supervisors. Um, she's cool with preach. And she was like, you have a podcast. Oh yeah. I said, no, I don't. Yo. She was like, no, your podcast doesn't put you in jeopardy. I said, yeah, well, yeah. Yeah. Every Monday 8am. Yeah, that was me. That was me. And she was like, yeah, yeah, yeah. She was like, I saw preach on there. I said, how do you know preach? I'm not gonna say that.

[00:11:06] But, but yeah. So, so yeah. Shout outs to preach. Shout outs to preach. Connecting the dots one. Yeah. She said, you know, preach me chat, chat. And I ain't wanna listen. But then the rest of y'all was talking sense. So I just closed my eyes and when preach wasn't talking. Focused on y'all. So. Come back. Come back preach. I'm the way out in Jersey. Word. Yeah. Yeah. That was, that was a very calm week. Nice, nice, nice. Who's ever had a good week? I'm thinking about more fucking buds and shit. Yeah. You gotta look forward to a lot.

[00:11:35] I'm going, I'm doing two more half marathons and two 5Ks coming up. Yo, this half marathon. Jordan, Jordan and Ariel is actually running one. She's a sicko bro. Yeah, she's a sicko bro. Yeah, I'm doing that one too. The other day I did 15 miles. I was like, I ain't gonna front, I gotta do more. I gotta go for that, that full marathon. 26? 26. I ain't gonna front. I ran from my crib to Hook Creek, Hook Creek to Baisley, Baisley to Springfield, Springfield to Rochdale.

[00:12:04] Yeah, I kinda went around that. What's the furthest distance you've run? In one line? The 15 was the furthest I've ever ran. So you, okay. That 15 was, that shit was brutal. I'm not gonna front. Like to the point I'm at like mile 12. I called my brother, I said, ain't gonna lie bro, do me a favor, order me a brown soup chicken. I'm about to pass out bro. I just, give me a large brown soup chicken, rice and peas and cabbage. You eating rice? Yeah, give me that shit, buddy. I don't give a fuck what else we put in there.

[00:12:34] So you gotta, so you have to kinda have a path so that you end back up where you started? Yeah, facts. Man, that's tough though. When I got close to my crib, I was at like 4.3, so I'm going in and out the blocks. Oh, so you, oh. So I can hit that number, yeah. Oh, wow. Shout out to that. Couldn't be me, sorry. I mean, that shit's mental, man. That shit's not in your body at some point. How many miles do you think I run playing basketball every week? If you keep your watch, you can check, but I'm not sure. You doing four court games though, that's a lot. Four court, two and a half.

[00:13:02] I'm not gonna lie bro, you getting at least 20,000 steps in bro. Oh, for sure. You don't have an Apple watch no more? I don't wear it when I hoop. I think that's bad, that's bad fit. That's not a bad fit. I'm wildin', that's not a bad fit. I ain't gonna free me. What'd I look like with a watch on my wrist playing ball bro? I'm not gonna free me. You know what I know, so every time Coach O play ball, so I ain't gonna lie, this nigga Kiss don't look happy to play Kiss. I'm a frustrated, I'm a frustrated, first of all he's never happy with nothing. That nigga kicked the basketball, that nigga Kiss is tight.

[00:13:30] Yo, Jada Kiss, he gonna get pissed off every play. Honestly, it's very surreal playing basketball with one of your favorite rappers bro. But he's still in shape. You talk shit to him? All the time, nigga, you have to. You have to, because he probably gonna be talking shit. I told Joe, yo, Joe, next time you shoot a three in his face, you gotta tell him, you not top five in my world. See, I won't take it that far. Now, now we got squad one. I won't take it that far. Bro, that nigga, he struggled like, yo, they won the game, he ran to the other side of the rim,

[00:13:58] grabbed the other side and did like, maybe like 15 pull ups. I'm like, yo, you gonna break the rim now. He's still in shape. Type of shit. He know he cool, you know you cool with his son and shit. Nah, nah, cause J-Won don't come to the runs but, yeah nah, that's not something. Type of shit, I would be saying it. It's surreal bro, I'm telling you. I'm like, I'm coming up the court. Nigga not gonna play a ball in the way. I'm coming up the court, I'm like, yo, that's Kiss right there. Like, uh. Kill it, kill it, I hate better than that. One three and kiss face? Nigga, you might as well call me Freeway.

[00:14:28] I just start triggering the man. I ain't gonna lie, nigga, I play a ball in the more, nigga. We squabbling, nigga. Nah, that first time I said something to him when he was like, he, uh, uh, what'd he say? He said, um, I don't believe it. I said, I do! That shit was hilarious, bro. That shit didn't even want to play a basketball game, man. I ain't gonna punt. That shit didn't do. That's a crazy story to tell. Like, anybody, y'all, I bust Jadakiss ass today, bro. Nigga thought I was 50.

[00:14:57] F-I-F-T-Y. Oh my God, I was watching that shit. I was like, yo, I hope Joe is talking wild shit. But you know, me naturally, I'm a shit talk on the court, so nobody's exempt. Nobody. Not even the woman basketball player you play? She's tough. Nigga, she, nigga. Yeah, I saw her comment, she was like, why you gonna post what I did to you? I don't have her. I don't have her. I would, I, she's not, like, I thought I was being so respectful by saying like, I had to guard a W-A-A-P-I-N. I'm a nine to five nigga, bro.

[00:15:25] I can't go out there and then go out there and play a pro, and I can't be like, damn, I can't show my little highlight. I show my highlights every week against the 40s. I'm not gonna show what you're doing to me, nigga. Fuck out of me. Nah, but, I'm a solid defender, so she, she definitely was getting her buckets, but like, she was killing me. She was killing you? No. Absolutely. Nobody kills me, nigga. Fuck outta here. Yo, Cheyenne asked me this morning, she said, you wanna see how grounded in reality I was? She said, Kaelin, you playing one on one, Kaelin Clark, you got ball first, what's the score? I said, she gon' beat me 11-8.

[00:15:54] You think you gon' drop eight on Kaelin? I asked, what do y'all think Kaelin Clark defensively can do to stop me? Seriously. I love that this nigga so confident. Let's be fuckin' real. Have you ever seen her do anything on the defensive side of the ball to stop anybody? She ain't stoppin' me. Now, I'm smart enough to know, if I miss, I'm gonna have a tough time. You might not get that ball back. I might not get the ball back, but I'm still, I still have enough defensive. You gotta hack a little bit. I'ma be physical. You gotta be. I do have good timing, I block jump shots, like, hopefully, cause I ain't gonna let her

[00:16:23] lay me or nothing like that, but if her footwork is crazy, like, she a pro. You might be a gummy connoisseur. You should be digging that man. Don't shit! Oh yeah, that, you see, there's no cap in my rap. I love you, bro. I love your shit. What do you mean? Yo, alright, what's up? You got a nigga eating fuckin' peanuts, man. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, what are we talking about today? What are we talking about today? Don, you wrote in the group chat on Wednesday, keep it to yourself. Alright, start it up. I'm sorry, I've been out of the, I didn't see the note today.

[00:16:51] Nah, yeah, that shit came from a few different places, though. It's, um, keep it to yourself in a, would you keep shit to yourself in a relationship? Like, not telling your shorty everything that you got going on in your life. Absolutely. That and, even at work, like, niggas be telling too much shit, bro. Oh, fact. We always say, like, yo, some shit. Bro, that was my beef with, uh, homie, yo, that was my thorn. Niggas talking to me 5 a.m. in the morning in the van headed to the airport. Like full-blown convo?

[00:17:20] Niggas talking about why his wife is upset. I don't care, bro. Yo, keep it, keep it, keep it. Yo, keep that to yourself. Keep that to yourself, man. Keep that to yourself, bro. That's how I've been feeling lately, bro. Keep that to yourself. What is it? That's because of the time it was, right? If it was like a 12 o'clock in the afternoon, you probably would have been more of a little to listen to it. We ain't defrost yet, bro. Like, you, we're here at this, in this van for this particular reason by force. Uh-huh. None of us want to be up this early.

[00:17:50] Ready to go on a plane. Ready to go on a plane. You see me on my phone, man. I ain't trying to talk. Bro, it's to the point now, yo, I got head, I understand how women feel. I got headphones in my head. I don't talk. It's not even playing. It's a detour. It's just a detour. It's just a detour. You walking past mad niggas in the fucking- Just so you don't talk to me, bro. Niggas just tap you on your shoulder like- Nah, don't, don't, don't do that. Because then I'm going to tell you don't touch me. Yeah, yeah, yeah. That is a pet peeve of mine. Especially on the airplane, when they try to get you attention. Yo, use your words, bro. Don't touch me. Don't touch me? No, don't touch me, bro.

[00:18:20] Don't touch me. Sir, sir. I'm okay with that. Sir. You skipped me. No, you was sleeping, but I got you. I hate when they do that too. Oh, you skipped my role. How homie next to you got a full can of chips and all of this? He ain't just skipping. I did that shit on the plane. I fell asleep, I think. Nah, there was one time, there was one time I dragged it. I was like, nah, you was like this. And they'll never know. He was dead knocked out like this. The lady next to him started dying. I know he was dying. Yeah, he felt bad. He wanted to throw the frame.

[00:18:51] I can tell, but you can't do that on a plane. I was still threatening. Oh my God, bro. And now NYPD waiting there at the gate. Yeah, it's fucked up. Yeah, that's tough. He wanted to throw the frame. He was pissed. I did try to. Couldn't take a little jokey joke? Nah, don't joke with me. Because now you trying to be the class clown? No, I got to be the funniest. It was a bunch of joints on the plane too? Yeah, probably. Or somebody that, he dragged me. He was like, yo bro, you skipped me. I said, yo, shorty right here got a whole. Shorty.

[00:19:19] Shorty right here got a whole drink and some chips. You were sleeping. No, I wasn't. Yo, bro, you was like this. That's what he was like. The Mina chain. That nigga wanted to die. I ain't gonna lie, nigga. I ain't gonna lie. Why you didn't, man? Grab me a mimosa, man. I'm gonna fuck mimosa now. When I say all he asked for was a water. He done. That nigga done. Bro, you did not want a water, bro. You wanted more. That nigga wanted a drink, drink, nigga. He wanted to throw to Frank, bro.

[00:19:48] That was a little aviation. Keep it to yourself, though? I'm big on my business, so. Nah, I ain't gonna front. I been on my keep it to myself lately, my nigga. Quiet, what you looking for, bro? That nigga hungry. Red cups. Red cups is on the corner. I just keep it to myself lately, bro. Like, even if it's some shit that bother me, it's like, huh? I take care of myself. I just keep it to myself, like. Even niggas. It depends, though. It depends. I just keep certain shit to myself. Certain shit I'll say.

[00:20:19] But another way that shit came about was, like, I'm at work, and my, one of my coworkers, he's like, like, talking about his life. Like, yeah, my girlfriend this. I'm like, oh, my nigga. Like, but we gotta set up this whole shit. I don't give a fuck right now, bro. Yo, do you feel like when people randomly tell, cause there's something on a plane called, like, a jump seat therapist. Mm-hmm. Like, when they're, uh, the jump seats are the safety seats that the flight attendants in.

[00:20:43] Sometimes, I only like working on planes where there's one jump seat per person. Cause I don't wanna sit next to nobody. Yeah. But in my junior days. You need a conversation. Yeah. Yeah. In my junior days, I ain't have a choice. Mm-hmm. Right? So, you will sit next to somebody. And I feel like being a jump seat therapist is when people wanna just divulge their deepest stresses, right?

[00:21:10] But I feel like people who do that don't have an outlet. So it's like, hey, let me just talk to this random person about this random, who ain't gonna really judge me, or might not judge me too much. And once this flight is over, you don't have to. I probably won't see you again after this little week. See ya, man. The amount of shit I knew about like a person I just met for that one day, and all they going through, it's always a relationship problem. It's always a relationship problem. Like, damn, you be going through it. What if you were like one of those people that'd be like, yo, hey, I got a podcast and show us to this right here? Nah, fuck no. No.

[00:21:40] Yo, we would be through the moon, bro. No, we would not. I would be hot on the floor. And then LA be at your local Home Depot. You could just blame it on one of us. Nah, that was- I can't do that. What? I can't do that. Alright, so you're telling me if I get on a flight with, and you are the flight attendant, and I'm promoting the pod on the flight, you'll get in trouble for that? Are you, are you you? I'm me, nigga. Or a person that knows the pod is like- Me, I'm saying me.

[00:22:09] I get on a flight and you working. Yeah. And I just start handing out what's up with our QR codes. I would be mad pissed at you, bro. Oh well. Niggas go to the page and say, nigga LA right there. I mean, I'm dancing on the bubble. You start tagging the CEO, like, oh yeah, no. You ever see my CEO's LinkedIn? Nah, I haven't. Shit is the reason why I never want- Yo, they be in there complaining like he gonna fix it directly. Well, that nigga not-

[00:22:38] He just got that page for show. He ain't looking at that shit. Niggas bought the premium just to DM the niggas crazy. Yo, bro. They be like, yo, the flight attendant that worked on did this to me. What the fuck am I supposed to do about that? Yo, bro. If they going that far to do that, they don't need to know anything outside of- That's right, though. Yeah, facts. When was the last time you kept something to yourself? When you really wanted to say something, you was like, nah. Yeah. I kept something to myself. There's nothing crazy.

[00:23:05] I think like when certain things are brewing, I used to be quick to share like, yo, this is happening, and then when it don't happen, you feel mad embarrassed because you went and told so many people. So I think I start to keep that to myself. Even now with women that I talk to, I don't tell y'all right away because these shits be temporary. Oh, damn. Do better, ladies. It's kind of like, yo, I tell you today, and then you come back next Saturday, yo, what happened? Yo, bro, you would not believe. So I keep that to myself.

[00:23:34] I was going to ask you about nobody. You all right? All right, cool. So are we just waiting for wedding invites as well? Like, that's the only time you'll hear something. I don't think it would be that dramatic. Maybe with you specifically, maybe. But, damn. I lost damn. I'm sending a location. That's it. Like, yo. Yo, fat. Yo, Joe, what you doing on Sunday? Saturday. Let's do it. Just bring one of your tuxes, bro. Pull up. Pull up. Just tell me your size real quick. Get your hair cut. So I get your mom treatment?

[00:24:04] Maybe. I ain't gonna front. That shit might change, bro. I don't know, bro. Yo, my mom actually asked me that. I kept that shit to myself, too. She was like, Sean, you know, I trust that you know, I raised you well that you know, your house is not like, you know. A whore house. A brato. She kept saying, you know. She wouldn't say it, but you know. I'm like, nah, I don't know what you mean. Like, say it. She was like, you know, I know you a man, but you know. No, no. Say it. Say it. I'm trying to pry it out.

[00:24:32] She was like, you don't have people like in and out. I'm like, nah, not at all, ma. Even that. Even us having that conversation the other day. I was like, yo, if some pull up back out here, he could pull up to the crib. Nah, I'm keep it to myself. Nobody gonna know why I'm living that. Oh, facts. Yeah, facts, facts, facts, facts, facts, facts, facts, facts, facts. We could meet in the city or something. See, even now, I thought, but me, I thought that was a little aggressive, though. Nah, some things you just gotta keep. I was gonna discuss a little bit of that. I was just. Nah, cause his side listens, so nah, they gonna snitch.

[00:25:02] But yeah, some things you just gotta keep to your chest. Some things are sacred. And some things are not worth telling right away. Not worth telling right away. I agree with that. Yeah. How'd you feel about going through the interview process with your job now? Yeah. Did you feel like you should've kept most of the shit to yourself? Like how you did with the other one? You feel like you should've kept that to yourself instead? You think it would've never hurt as much? Well. I mean, we can say it now, cause you're employed. You talk about Ebony, right? Yeah, no, I think I learned differently.

[00:25:31] I think, I think I was so much more excited than before. Uh, so I kept this one a little bit more to myself than before. Um, I didn't say anything until, like, I think maybe my, I don't remember when I told you I got an interview. I don't remember. But I know through the, like, when I reached out and they, and we were having back and forth, I didn't say nothing. Mm. And. You got so close at it. Yeah, I, once it got close and I ran out and realized, then I started to get more confidence. But I kept a lot of that, a lot of that to myself. A lot of the details I kept to myself. Mm.

[00:26:00] Like, I, I hit, I hit LA and I asked him a salary question. Mm. Just very bland. He didn't know what I was talking about. He thought, you know, he just, he was like, is that what, is that what you got offered? And I'm like, shit. Shit. But yeah, like, um, I think I learned, I, but that's like super, that was like superstitious, which I'm not at all. But I'm like, uh, if it failed last time, let me shut up about it. Nah.

[00:26:26] Do you, um, do you tell people more about your losses or your wins? Ooh. You know what's crazy? I tell people more about my losses than my wins. People don't. It depends where they're at in their life for me to tell them. True. True. Um, yeah. I tell people more about my wins. I tell people more about my losses. I think so. There is a level of relatability in it where you, or at least you feel like,

[00:26:56] damn, not me too. It's not just me. That's a great. But I don't want to, I don't want to say too many of my losses because now it looks like, damn, nigga, you losing a lot. Nah, but that's fine. Nah, because if you look at where you are now, it's kind of like, damn, Don went through all of this and look where he's at now. You persevere. You know, you don't always want to look like, like you drop 50 every game. Oh, like the Instagram shit. I remember a couple years ago, I actually wanted to do this content piece where I was doing Kojo's failure of the week. Right?

[00:27:25] Cause I felt like it's very normal on the internet for everybody to show everything good that's going on in their life. Where y'all feel like it's, it's this clean, fucking perfect, uh, perfect slate. When in reality, you're like, nah, this is actually tough. It's similar to like Rosebud Thorne. Right? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Cause I, we could come up here every day and say, yo, like, I just did this amazing event, wing star, da, da, da, da, da. Niggas don't know that. Oh shit. Like I lost my wallet for six hours the other day. Like, like, you know what I'm saying?

[00:27:54] So, um, and that's on the men's school side, but it could be like real tough shit that you're going through, but you kind of want to, I feel like you're right. It humanizes you a little bit more. Yeah. Um, for me, I think I don't, I don't speak about my losses a lot. Cause I feel like people wouldn't even really believe that shit. I kid you not. Niggas, uh, niggas was talking about me the other day. Who? Rant, rant. You're about to be somebody else? No. Y'all know what he said. Y'all ain't about to be somebody else. I'll give everybody anonymity, anonymity, but they were talking about me.

[00:28:23] I walked over and they was like, um, they knew I was going to deflect. Right. They knew like, cause they were talking about me in a positive light and they knew I was going to deflect. Oh, you don't like that. You don't embrace that. I'm difficult. It's difficult because of my subconscious is like, I feel like there's a sub sector of people who believe that I, that all I care about is me self-centered. I just, the praise I need. Oh, that shit really got to you. Oh, it fucks with me. It fucks with me bad.

[00:28:49] So like even people that I know and love and care about, if they saying nice things about me, I'm just like, yo, shut up. Like I'm running away. Like, no, no, no, no, you gotta stop that. I know. I know to my head. I'm over here. You're being yourself up. You need that. Especially, especially if, if it's fucking with you so much, then it's voice. It's probably from the voices that are not saying it. Yeah, no, no. Yeah. I mean, if we're, if we're boasting you up, yo, Joe, you the best. You did it. You've done a lot, bro. You singing you praises. You know what I'm saying?

[00:29:19] You can't. I'm over, cause I'm over here. I'm like, to me, I'm still like, yo, keep that to yourselves. Like, let's, let's talk about y'all. Like now my thing is though. So where does the positive mind go there? Yeah. Mr. Positivity is literally out there. You literally show the negative door, bro. I don't know, man. I just be, I be wanting y'all. I be wanting everybody else to. I'll be fine. I know I'll always be fine. Like it's like, it doesn't affect my day to day, my work ethic. I just, it's certain shit that make me cringe and it's things like that. Like, damn, why y'all over here talking about me?

[00:29:47] Like, I think you just learn how to accept it for a few seconds. But all right, thanks guys. Enough. Then you pivot. It was in a, it was in a, it was in a space where people who didn't know me were also hearing it. So now, or didn't know me in that light was like, I'm like, oh, now you telling people, Oh gosh, now they're going. I don't, it's an adjustment period. I will say, but I would, I would have rather them keep that shit to themselves. Nah. That's not. Tell me one on one. For them to be talking about it in a group setting. So, so words of affirmation is not a love language of yours.

[00:30:16] No, I don't need that. You know what's crazy? That it was me too. For a while. It wasn't, I think of recent, it became such a, like, I need that. Like, you know why? Because in my experiences, you always, I've always heard when I did bad. Mm-hmm. Okay. And never, yo. Yeah. I think you did a great job here. Like, thank you. Or even a little bit of praise. Something, something as simple as the whole, like, you left with nothing. Mm-hmm.

[00:30:45] No, I'm not, I'm not taking it there, but like. Like what about all the, all the good shit? Yeah. And you never, but if, but that's my fault for going so long letting that slide. Like, yo, why are we always talking about like the bad that I did? Mm-hmm. I did, I did no good. So the good is normalized, like it's not. Or, or it's expected. Mm-hmm. Like. Like that, like that, like that parent that says, you're supposed to go to school and get hurt. Yeah. But yeah, that's true. But like, hey, good job. At least been there. Thank you. A little pat on the boat, motherfucker. I will say, it makes, it does make it feel like, on that, on my way home after night

[00:31:14] one, a friend of mine called me, uh, couldn't make it to the event. And he just was congratulatory of me. Never, he had, not that he had never done that before. We have a working relationship and all that stuff. But like, I didn't expect him to pick up the phone, call me, yo, proud of you, bro. Good shit. Like, I didn't need that. If I would've went home and not heard from him and woke up the next day, he still would've been my mans. I still would've been like, I still would've felt like, y'all, you know what I'm saying? Like. But imagine it from a, from a perspective where somebody only talks about your losses.

[00:31:44] Yeah. Okay. I feel like. Oh, it's like, think about it as like an athlete, right? Where you have a good game and sports center don't cover it, but you bomb and they talking about. Yeah. Can you imagine, can you imagine that stress? Like, damn y'all niggas. Well, Joe is supposed to, you know, that's why they pay him X, Y, and Z. You're a professional athlete. You're making $50 million a year. Like your year. We expect you. So, okay, cool. Uh-huh. But then when I have a bad game, well, I don't think you should've given him $50 million. Yeah. Max player. Yeah.

[00:32:13] So it's kind of like, damn, don't always talk about me when I'm doing bad or only the only time you want to speak to me is about some sort of improvement. So that's in reverse. Don't keep that to yourself. Tell me, tell me everything. That, yeah. No, tell me. Tell me everything. That's how I am too. Like, if I feel like really happy or proud or whatever moment it is, I tell the person right away, like, yo, bro, like, it could be like a random, I could be having a random thought and just say, yo, bro, I'm mad happy for you. Yeah. I feel like people need that. You need to hear that, like. Yeah, sometimes.

[00:32:42] Because you never know if somebody's thinking about themselves in their mind. The only reassurance I really need is that I'm supported. Like, supported whether. What's that look like? Like whether, it's not about if you agree with it, if you like it, if you enjoy it. It's just like, yo, I support what you doing. Mm-hmm. And I want to see you thrive. But as far as like, bigging me up, I don't need that. I'll take it. Mm-hmm. But I don't need that.

[00:33:10] I, I, it's not a necessity for me to hear that. Mm-hmm. And maybe I should work on, on requiring affirmate, word of affirmations. I don't know. But I do, I, I don't go to sleep not getting affirmations and feeling like, fuck, something's missing here. Mm-hmm. I feel fulfilled still. Cause you know why? You probably still get it without realizing it. I feel like if it was a, it's a direct, it's not direct. It don't have to be direct. No, not really. If it goes a drought, like if you go through like this whole, like maybe six months and nobody says, nobody says anything, you know what I'm saying?

[00:33:39] Or like you, but like for example, I don't think you was looking for your creative director to post you and be like, yo, shout out to Cojo. Yeah. Yeah. You know, you notice my work. Like you notice, you understand what, how hard this was for me being thrown into the fryer. Yeah. Yeah. That was a funny joke he made. But it was like, yo, that would make me feel good. Like, I bet you know, you threw me in the fire early and I stood and I did a great job. Yeah. It's not like, imagine, it's like, well that's what we paid a nigga for.

[00:34:09] So, you know what I'm saying? No. You know, the task was hard. It was difficult. I delivered. I over delivered. It's crazy. Cause it's funny you say that. Cause in my head, that's how I operate. Like, I mean, niggas did. You supposed to be doing that now? No, no, no, no, no, no. So I would say that they have consistently said, it's not usually like this, right? This is a new, it was a new stay and you guys crushed it. Whatever. Cool. I'm fine with that. But also in my head, it was moments of time where I'm sitting there thinking, nah, that's why they hired me though.

[00:34:38] Like, that's why I am senior art director at Vayner because you, you could, you can handle this. So, I mean, I did come, I did have that side where even if I didn't get a shout out in the, in the Slack channel or a post on a gram. So you don't need it cause you do it to you. You do it yourself then? Yeah. Y'all know my body. Now we talked about wins and losses. Do you tell your significant other losses? I feel like you have to. Everyone? Because if you don't, right? Not everyone, but yeah.

[00:35:07] What stage in my relationship could I have with this guy? Ooh. Ooh. That nigga's more than three years in. I was talking to my, oh, damn. Uh. Can I say this? I can't say this. If you think about it, don't say it. Yeah, if you think about it, don't say it. You tell me about the part. Cause I just don't know where it will reach. So I won't say it. Yeah. Yeah. Um. I'll tell her after I, uh, uh. You will go, come to the group. Yeah. It depends. Somehow I'll say it, some I won't. Somehow I just, I gotta take care of myself.

[00:35:36] I just want, cause I don't want, I don't, sometimes I don't want my problems to be that problem. I got a question. I got a question. Yeah, I got one too. Go first though. Okay. Do you think, do you think a woman, the love of your life, the woman that you love all your life will eventually leave you if you are losing too much or presenting your losses too much? Aight. Corner quote, becoming a loser. I want to call too much. I'm gonna answer this very directly cause I'm the single one here.

[00:36:00] I said it, I said it, I asked it because it's, uh, uh, it was said to me by, uh, well not to me. I heard it through a great rhyme from an OG, an OG woman that a woman would leave. She's gonna leave. If he, not me or just saying, I'm just saying she said it about somebody. You're not winning at all. Yeah. You're not winning at all. You keep losing. Um, people have choices. Uh huh. You fuck where I'm going so far, Dan?

[00:36:31] Me and Dane talk too much. People have choices. I'm gonna do this in my Dane voice and people are gonna do what's best for them. And you just have to, you just have to accept it and take it on the chin and move on. Yeah. Well, Dane go. Yeah. But yeah, nah, you just, you can stay. You don't have that much confidence in human beings. In that patient.

[00:36:57] In prioritizing risk assessments versus where they want to be selfishly and what, when they want it. Mm. So, to answer your very yes or no question, yes. Yes. I think my love of my life would do that if I was on a 20 game losing streak in life. Okay. Because I don't trust... Women. I can't say that. I can't say that. That was Joe.

[00:37:26] You can't, you can't. I'm gonna make sure my voice dropped, your voice dropped and Joe's is in Greece so they don't chose that. I can't, I can't believe that the person's gonna choose me every time. Yeah. Shit. Yeah. Maybe I'm jaded. Sometimes people. Maybe I'm jaded Joe. Jaded. But yeah, I don't, I don't trust that a person would withstand the reign that they don't have to. Mm-hmm. Cause if somebody's taking, watching you take the losses, some of them losses may affect them too.

[00:37:56] And you know? Now, now your problems are their problems. Like who wants to, I mean... I mean, this is not a sports podcast, but I don't, but it was even shocking to see Denver's coach get fired three games before the playoffs, bro. Yeah. Like, two years ago, y'all was on the mountaintop. Yeah. And it's a winning environment. And it's a winning environment. Nobody looks at Denver like, oh y'all's a movie. Yeah. Like, yeah. So, to see somebody make a decision, like three games right before the playoffs, that's devastating, bro.

[00:38:25] Like, I done spent 75 games or what, 77, 80? Mm-hmm. 80 games coaching this team up. We lost a couple and now I'm out of here? Right before we could probably do this. All you need is good performances, a couple of lucks here and there. You got the best player in the league. You got the second, you got the best player in the league? Mm-hmm. You don't wanna give me a chance? Like, damn. So that goes to show, is winning that important to Denver, the organization? I don't know. I don't know.

[00:38:54] I don't know. I don't think it is. And even the same thing with, with, with, with Luca. You just saw him like, crying. Like, he was in the, breaking of tears. He was fucked up. He was like, fucked up. Like, damn. I threw a 40 on niggas. 45. Shit the year before, be with two games away from, you know, why quit? They wasn't gonna be awesome. Why, why, why give up on me so quick? You know? So, I don't put enough faith in anybody not to give up on me for their self. Whatever their reason is, is their reason.

[00:39:23] And I said it so many times this year. People do what's best for them. You better hope that you're just one of those things that's best for them. I hear that. And that's why I'm a affirmation, a words of affirmation person now, because I want to hear that you feel like I'm what's best for you in these situations. But niggas be lying though. So? I mean. Well, you would hope the love of your life, the example that you gave is telling the truth, right? Yeah. If you can find the words to tell me you disappointed or you upset or you want me to do things better, all right.

[00:39:54] Hey, how about, I see the effort and the change you've made since I brought this up. No, you just expect me to make this change because that's the self-centered and selfish person. Because you only care about, you know, your feelings. You don't look to see like, you don't appreciate, oh, yo, Joe, like, you know, you've been running late. Joe comes on time now or this, that and that. Or if he's running late, yo bro, I need an extra amount of time. You just don't walk in when you want to walk in. I'm not. That was just an example.

[00:40:24] Yeah, that was just an example. You did communicate, so we probably think about it. Fourth agreement, bro. It was just an example. But you wouldn't want to just be like, oh, I expect y'all to be here. Nah, I appreciate the effort that you're putting in, bro. Thank you. No doubt. Yeah, facts. So yeah, nah. That was, I don't know how, I don't know where my brain went there, but we were talking about losses. I heard losses and I just thought about losing, but I was talking to somebody and essentially

[00:40:51] that came up in the convo and I just wanted to see what y'all thought. Yeah, yeah. You had a question? I did. Did it leave your brain? Okay, I'm sorry. What happened first? Something happened. We were talking about wins and losses, no? You were talking about wins and losses telling you I'm significant other your losses and your wins. Yeah, that's what triggered me to ask that. Yeah, yeah. Keep it into yourself. Yeah, yeah. Me personally, depends on how safe I feel in my relationship at that, in that moment.

[00:41:21] Mm-hmm. Not to say that my person isn't the safest space, but if we in like a, you know how you don't tell certain people certain things because you know what they're going to say? Yeah. Yeah. But I already know the outcome. Yeah, it's kind of like, yeah. Like, are you going to push this aim forward? Yeah. Nah, I don't need that. I don't need that scolding. I'll figure it out. Yeah, sometimes it's just not somebody's best ability to hear your losses. Yeah, facts. Some people just don't have the skill. Like, I just know I'm not telling, like I know certain people not to tell me losses. You know, that kind of sucks, right?

[00:41:50] You're with somebody, you spend all this time talking to them, experiencing things with them, you're in love with them. But they might not be the best at something like that. That's really important where it's like, okay, well, I got, I got, I'm taking these L's. And what's that, what's that term? Jets? The thing, the therapist? The seat, on its plane. You said something about a seat therapist? Oh, the jump seat therapist. You might have more success talking to your jump seat therapist about your losses because of their life experience. You just getting that shit off at that point.

[00:42:18] Rather than the person that you spend every day with because they just not equipped with that skill. Now, do you think your parents are equipped with that skill? I wouldn't give them that. Oh. I haven't put them into the test enough. I don't think, I don't think. I think you have though. I don't think my pops, I don't think my pops is equipped with that. My mom, today her birthday, so I'm gonna go light. I'm gonna go light. It depends when I catch her. If I catch her in a good, in a good. How'd the day she feel?

[00:42:49] Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. She cooking, is she in the kitchen, she watching her team? Nah, I'm not bringing that up. Nah, cause she in her zone. That's a safe space. Yeah, she watching tennis, leave that alone. I'm not disrupting that. It gotta be on some like, the moment, the moment gotta be, my parents don't really have that. And I think, I think I would've been better equipped socially and emotionally if my parents

[00:43:16] was equipped with me able to tell them my losses and stuff like that. You know what I'm saying? So, yeah, I would, you know, funny enough, the person I would tell my losses to, like I love my mom the different, I would rather tell my pops. I can see that. As soon as my pops looks bro, like, talking to my pops is like talking to Mills sometimes. You think it's a man thing? Huh? You think it's a man thing maybe? It possibly is.

[00:43:41] Like, even with like, when I have a gig, like my dad is more likely, in past times, my dad was more likely to give me the card than my mom's. I got a gig I gotta go to. My mom's be like, to do what? No. I got somewhere to go. She ain't going nowhere, my nigga. My pops would be like, yo, here, take the card. Like even if I tell him my loss, she'd be like, yo bro, we gon' figure it out. Work on it, you gon' figure it out, don't worry about it. Like, I just know who to talk to. That's the affirmation right there.

[00:44:08] Like, when I say words of affirmation, I don't need the like, yo, I love you. The long deep, the long deep, the long deep fucking quotes. Yeah, but like something like that, yo, you gon' figure it out. Or we're gonna figure it out. That's that support that I bet. You, you, you about to, you may not take on this problem fully with me, but you not gonna let me crash. You'll be there. So yeah. There's a, there's a, there's a few people that I really fuck with for saying certain shit like, certain shit like that. One person I got shout out, like y'all always do it. I got shout squirrels out. Squirrels always by yo bro. It all work out.

[00:44:38] JP. Same shit you do. You by yo bro. It's just another, it's just another thing to work on. You good. You be all right. Yeah. So, um, that's why I'm very cautious about who I keep around right now. Like as you know, I'm not doing the outside shit too much. I'm kind of like just in the crib chilling. Oh, matter of fact, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. We got a question. I'm glad. Yeah. We got a question. It goes to a little bit of, hold on. Let me see if I can find it.

[00:45:08] This app is an interesting thing. We just got a question. We just got a question. We just got a question. We just got a question. I forgot who asked. I forgot who asked and I'm sorry. I'll figure it out. Um, I'll figure it out soon. Once I figured this app thing out. But she asked, are we looking forward to any outside events? I think she, uh, she made mention of burgers and bottles.

[00:45:35] Um, I think EMC, like, are we going to be outside this summer in a sense? Um, and to be honest with you, I'm gonna answer that directly. I think I told, I told Don, but I think I'm passing on all of that this summer too. I don't want to be too outside. Um, I feel like I got a lot of things that I need to accomplish where my money needs to go. And it shouldn't go to that at this very moment. Shouldn't go to burgers or bottles. Or, or, or, or tequila fest.

[00:46:04] Cause I don't want to just say burgers and bottles. Cause that may sound like it's directly. Oh no, no, no. But being outside, like my prior, like. I'm gonna keep myself out that mix. Different priorities. Different priorities. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, I got, I got that shit that I got to figure around and work on. I feel you on that too. I got shit to accomplish. I feel you on that. Like, I haven't been outside in a while. Obviously because of situational. Mm-hmm. And even though the situation is changing, it's still like, not like first thing in my mind. I can't wait to go back outside.

[00:46:33] But I do want to go and have a good time. Enjoy some of it. There's still things to celebrate. Um, but it's not, those aren't deal breakers. Like, you know what I'm saying? You gotta prioritize what you gotta work on. I do think, I, I, I, I completely understand what LA is saying. Yeah. Yeah. But I do also know how we are. Mm-hmm. And I feel like, as it gets closer to, we will be in a way, a way better space mentally. Cause it's not even a financial thing. Cause money will not be an issue. Mm-hmm. It's, um, man, let's go have a good time. Full effect though. Like, let's just, yeah. I know us. Let's go. I know us.

[00:47:03] So, you know, when, when, when, we'll cross those bridges when we get there, but you know, not like, I'm not looking forward to like, Oh, I found it. It's very much normalcy for us to go there and be there. It's tradition. It's like, yo, this is what we do. You know what I'm saying? So, it's not like we looking forward to it. It's like, we, we, we're normally going to be there. So, for me, I'm saying, I'm speaking for me. I don't know. I can't speak. It's T smooth. What's up T smooth? T smooth. Uh, she wrote, uh, I hope you're doing well. Question for everyone with the summer right around the corner.

[00:47:32] Are there any events in NYC you're excited about? Like tequila, Fest burgers, bottles or BRT weekend? BRT weekend is crazy. I would go if my body was where I wanted it to be. I can't front. Can't front like that. My cousin's actually an ambassador. That's great. I've never been there. I fuck with EMC. I've never been to none of this shit. It was my guys too. And niggas always ask me to go there. We always talk about those shit. They got a new color event. I think it's a nude one. More nudes, yeah. Yeah, it's like a nude one. Um, I've never been to tequila Fest.

[00:48:00] That sound like my boy going here. I'm not even drinking right now. So that's another thing. Yeah, that's another thing too. That's another thing too. The drinking shit, bro. I forgot who asked. Somebody asked like, yo, y'all be drinking on the pod? I said, yo, actually everybody on the pod right now is really sober. Yeah, very sober. Like, I have mad bottles of wine that would have probably finished if everybody was, but nah. Yo, they was tempting me this weekend. Yo, you gotta celebrate. Look what you did. Have a tender. I'm like, nah.

[00:48:28] Yo, last night, I swear to God, final night, everybody's, alright, let's go get some wine at the bar. And I'm sitting there, I'm just like, you know what got them a leaf? Give everybody a hug and dip. Like, I want to celebrate, I just don't think I need. Celebrate, you gotta find that. That's good self control. It's great self control. This is kind of like the second time I've done it, because they tried to do it for night one. So how about tonight? No. I'm gonna be at the Barclays sober, watching my brother and my sister act a fool. But I can have a blast without the liquor. Give me some apple juice, I'm straight, bro. I actually bought some apple juice.

[00:48:57] I was drinking, and I don't go for soda, but like, it was a Sprite, and Sprite was one of our sponsors as well, so mad Sprite around. I was just drinking Sprite. Bring them sponsors. I want y'all to know. Sprite, you can put your stuff right here. This table right here, mad Sprite stuff. Coke is the main sponsor, but yes, Sprite. We can fill the thirst. My drink this summer is probably gonna be hard kombucha. It has like 60% alcohol on it. Outside? The kombucha on the outside?

[00:49:26] You gonna put it in a flask? How am I putting that? That's crazy. That's crazy. A healthy probiotic in a flask. But I do believe that alcohol, sometimes I don't need it. I can have fun without it. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I feel like sometimes we drink because it's the vibe and it's like, sometimes we get a little nervous being around so many people. That's why sometimes I drink. It's like, yo, so much people remind me I get nervous, my anxiety start going crazy. I don't like it. I had to be alert this weekend. Jolene and Simon was not a big place. We had mad people in there. It was only probably... Yeah, it was...

[00:49:56] Nah, it looked good. It looked good. Nobody was in the back room? We were. Oh, the other... Like, we took over the whole fucking... It was the whole shit, so the front door? Front, back, we was in the... Yeah, we had all... A little cut right there by the DJ booth. It was nice. It was nice. Oh yeah, bro, we're gonna say this. We're proud of you, man. Thanks. We both wanted to pull up. I'm not gonna lie, I couldn't move my body yesterday. Not so good. I literally got a ticket. I was like, alright, I'm gonna go. So I really wanted to go, bro. Anybody that pulled up, really kinda surprised me. Cause nobody had told me how I'm pulling up.

[00:50:24] So first things first, my main thing was with the RSVP thing. They didn't let me know if I got in or not. So I definitely didn't wanna use... Yo, my podcast host and one of my best friends is running this whole shit. I already just cold screws. I already just cold screws. I didn't wanna do that. But then at the same time, I came home, I landed about 12. Got home maybe 1.30. I took my clothes off. I said, I should not have... That's like taking off the bro.

[00:50:52] I was like, I should not have just taken my clothes off and not put anything else back on, bro. That's cool. I sat in the bed. I hit dark. I hit dark. I was like, yo, where you at? I hit him that morning too. He definitely hit me in the morning. I hit him that morning and said, where you at? He said where he was at. I was like, damn, you might be looking slow. Slow. I texted the nigga around 8 o'clock. I said, I guess we're not going. I was thinking, I guess I was sleeping. And then you didn't text me back till like 12 or so in the morning. I think it's actually easier if you're not there.

[00:51:22] Because then I got to feel like on top of making sure that the event is going well. You got to make sure we good? I got to make sure my niggas is having a good time. We good, bro. Please leave me alone. We good. We probably been fucking with him a long time. Rain pulled up on day one. I'm like, nigga, where you come from? He came through... I'm like, all right, go in. I know Rain will be good. He's a social butterfly. I'll talk to anybody. That's a nigga. He gonna eat some fried tenders. He's greedy. You know what I'm saying? Jared was on Team Epiphany's guest list, so he was in there already. Jordan Ariel pulled up.

[00:51:51] She said she was hurting. They were trying to surprise me. But Yaya wasn't feeling well, so she pulled up. I'm like, all right. I didn't ask anybody to come, but... Y'all just pulled up. That's fine, though. Shout out to y'all pulling up. It was a good vibe. I appreciate y'all and your effort. Kwani said he was gonna be bottom-on-forward, bottom-on-pull-up. He was in the Barclays Center and it's all white. I'm proud of you, man. Yeah, very proud of you, Joe. Thank you, man. And take... Don't keep that to yourself. Tell me more. Yeah, facts.

[00:52:21] Now, I don't think our friend group is like that at all. Nigga, I coached you like five times when you got the job. Nigga, I'm proud of you. No, no. That's a regularity. So I think, yeah, it's a regularity. I think we're really, like I said, what made me cringe is like, people who don't know me like that was hearing people... Because you don't want you to be perceived that way? You don't want somebody that does a good job? What's the... The cringe is the thought process of what these strangers are possibly thinking that you'll never confirm? Yeah, like, because what if I give off the aura of like, oh...

[00:52:50] Big shit popping? Oh, about me. Oh, okay. So what's the arrogant? You don't want to see me. But see, I think... I'm not arrogant, man. Okay. That is alarming because there's no way for you to ever confirm that. I know. So why even think about... Maybe that's my demon right there, man. That's it. That might be the thing that... Because the... I could be thinking... Like, say I was new to whatever circle and somebody... Everybody's picking up Joe. I may think, oh, damn, man. He must be the man. Maybe. But you all want to be the man, though?

[00:53:20] This must be a cool dude. This nigga probably... Stop. If you thinking, I'm thinking, man, this is an arrogant ass nigga. You will never... You got it. You got it. You got it, bro. You would have never known. I thought... So you should think more of the positive side. Like, oh, me... What if... Yo, the nigga could be high as fuck. You know what I remember? And then they ain't paying niggas no mind. I remember. So the first thing I go to your mind is, oh, this nigga might behave? No. This person may be perceiving me to be a cocky dude. Yeah.

[00:53:49] Because niggas is over here talking about me. Niggas is over here singing. And I'm over here like, yeah, you know what it is. Yeah, no. So don't talk about me, guys. Nah. Are you guys okay? Y'all need anything? Bet. I'll be back in 10 minutes. Like, that's what I got up out of here. I'm like, yeah, come on. Whatever y'all do, I hope you're around. So my question to you is, we didn't want to make it about a Joe thing. See? This is why. Can we stop soon? Nah, we gonna... We about to be right into the few minutes, but... Let's not make it about you. What's up? You feel like somebody humbled you or situation humbled you to the point that you act like this stuff?

[00:54:18] No, it's not a particular situation. It is... Has this always been like an internal thing? Yes. That you just never voiced and you kept to yourself? It's been internal. So why are you gonna tell us to stop? Tell us to stop what? Talking about me? No, because we weren't talking about you. But why didn't you tell us to stop or express this thought of yours? Finding this out in real time is... Joe's one of the best... He's one of the best... With y'all, y'all are my brothers, so there's a trust there.

[00:54:49] Trust that we're not doing it ill-intended. Yeah, there's a trust there. Okay. But you guys have earned that trust within me, right? It's just some people that don't have that trust. I don't know which way it could go, man. Okay. So... But to answer you, it's not a situation. Not one situation. It's multiple. It's little comments from maybe 10, 12 years ago. It could be somebody that tried to send a little joke one day on the gram. It's... Take life, yeah. Yeah, bro. It's all of that because when you...

[00:55:18] Sometimes it's not about your intentions, right? I said that last week. It's not. But socially, right? Nobody's gonna sit... Talk about your losses. That's a very bold person. There's not that many bold people in the world. But you'd have to know. You'd also have to know. Right? So, what is there to talk about then? Yo, this is my friend. You can make up losses. Make up losses. And put that on your jacket? And then... I don't want to make up losses, bro. I just don't see anybody...

[00:55:47] In a social setting like that, there's only good things that will ever be said. So... Nobody's gonna say, yo... Yo, meet my man Joe. He just got a job. He was unemployed for mad long. Like that's quick. You know, to me that's okay though. That's alright? You're a sick nigga, bro. He ain't a bum-ass nigga no more. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I fuck with that, I fuck with that, I fuck with that. I fuck with that, I fuck with that. Yo, Joe, I would fully expect you. I wish you had crying his face or something. Matter of fact, I think we'd be in Don with a pop though.

[00:56:15] Whoever said that way before you did. And then to look at you be like, yo, he ain't do nothing wrong. You can laugh about that a little bit. Ain't no... That's a slick comment, man, I don't like that. Joe, what you talking about, bro? I don't like it though, bro. Nah, I don't like it though. That was okay. This is me and Joe, right? Yo, meet my man Joe, you know, he was heartbroken when that record label fired him. Oh, he's a nice guy. And then he applied for a job, they strung him along all the way through, but then we got back to him. See how you dragging it?

[00:56:45] You see how you dragging it? That's what you want, man. But now he back on his feet doing well. Look at that, you ain't a bum ass nigga no more. That's what you talking about. The first way I said it, I was okay with. When you throw the details into it, now that hurt, that hurt a little bit. That hurts, bro. That should hurt, that should hurt period. That should hurt period. That's what the difference is, like, that was the truth. Like, four years I did struggle, right? Saying what it was, what happened in between. Yo, bro, nobody needed to know your struggle anyway.

[00:57:13] All they need to do, their introduction to you. This is his event. This introduction of you, this is Kojo. He's the senior art director of... VaynerMedia. The event that we're at now, you see all these nice graphics and stuff like that. This is the man right here. Anytime you need any business, get him up through email. Yeah, this is my man. I can vouch for him. That's it. The other option that I did. I don't even know what they were saying about me in that little circle, because... But you just ran because you didn't want the praises.

[00:57:42] Nah, you gotta run towards that shit. Well, you had a... You had a tough four years. The arrogance is if that's how you choose to introduce yourself. That may come off. Hey, I'm the head senior manager, blah, blah, blah, this, that, and... If you need anything, I got you, I'm the man. Yeah, facts. Wait, that's what's wrong with that? That is... It depends on if it's a business setting, nothing's wrong with that. But if it were casual kickback, like say we have a barbecue here, you're in here introducing

[00:58:12] to yourself as a... Here's my business card. Here's my business card. What the fucking... Yeah, what are you doing? You need help with marketing on my ears? Bro, this is not a graphic here. That's like corny walking up somebody like, yo, I don't... That fit a little off. That fit a little off, bro. You just throw a sundae, sundae is the hottest thing in New York City right now. Like, nigga, shut up. Yeah, so it's time and... It's all time and place. Oh, man. So technically nothing's wrong with that. If you was in a business setting, you trying to, you know, you trying to voice your resume, you pitching yourself. But in a casual setting where we all kick back laughing, and that's how you... Keep that shit to yourself, bro.

[00:58:42] Keep that shit to yourself, my man. Facts. If that's how we end, keep that to yourself. Keep that shit to yourself, bro. I got y'all, I got y'all. We already know this man, Don the Camera God, Don Peasley, AKA Don on TikTok, working out. You changed the ticket tonight? No, we... Oh, not enough characters for that. You can follow me at StayFocusLA on Instagram and Twitter. Don't forget to like, comment, and subscribe. All things What's A Good God coming out every Monday at 8am. If you haven't already, subscribe to the Patreon where you get ad-free content, two episodes

[00:59:09] a week, and you can watch us live every Saturday morning once you're on that front row tier. That is crazy that I did that in one, two, three, four, five, six. That was a big one last. That is a bomb, man. That is bullshit, bro. You don't need no pressure, man. That's why I get nervous. Oh my God. You're nervous. If you need me, J-O underscore guy game. Shit me. Shout out to Dane, cause Dane Biden. Dane Biden. You know what I'm saying? Dane don't like that praise, right? He don't like it in the moment. Tell him after. After? Yeah. I got you.

[00:59:40] Kwan, I was like, Kwanian, Dane in the building, man. Shout out to the fellas for being in the building. And, um, Sunday got a lot in the, in the works. Keep an eye out for that. Get that. Wow. If you got Dane number, you know why you got Dane number. Um. Is that an off camera combo? Till next time. All right. God is the greatest. You want the rest of these pineapples, bro?