[00:00:00] Yo Yo Yo Yo Yo Last One Y'all
[00:00:08] Once A Month Bro, That's All I Asked For Y'all Tom
[00:00:15] Damn Boy, I Look Like A Lumberjack In This Bitch
[00:00:22] Following On Twitch, Don Peasley
[00:00:26] Nah, I'm Don Peasley on Twitch. I don't want people to you know get used to me with that
[00:00:34] Alright, Y'all Ready?
[00:00:36] I'm living in here.
[00:00:38] You created that.
[00:00:40] Nah, We Good.
[00:00:43] You got an extra bottle of water?
[00:00:45] May I please have one?
[00:00:47] Bless me.
[00:00:49] Take a little H2O.
[00:00:54] That's to me, Pogu.
[00:00:55] That's to you?
[00:00:56] Yo, Quan, you seen that no smoke is odd that they put for you?
[00:00:59] Yeah.
[00:01:00] Yeah, nah.
[00:01:04] I'm gonna take that out of your crack money, bro.
[00:01:09] Nigga said that shit on the episode.
[00:01:12] Nigga don't give a fuck you.
[00:01:14] What up, Dad?
[00:01:15] Y'all Ready?
[00:01:15] Yeah, Facts.
[00:01:16] Oh man, you already know what it is, motherfuckers.
[00:01:19] Most of the lumberjack is always Donald Peasley.
[00:01:21] Alongside of LaShawn.
[00:01:22] Oh, it's another beautiful day here in the...
[00:01:24] That sounds crazy.
[00:01:25] Why'd I mow my name like that?
[00:01:27] LaShawn?
[00:01:28] Wow, I apologize for you to be peeing that shit.
[00:01:31] That was crazy.
[00:01:32] But, um...
[00:01:34] Oh, actually, I want that stricken from the record, actually.
[00:01:37] I want that stricken from the record, but it's another beautiful day here in YT, man.
[00:01:41] Got the fellas in the building.
[00:01:42] Quanster's in the building.
[00:01:43] JB's in the building.
[00:01:45] Money Matt's in the building.
[00:01:46] Joseph and Mr. Dame.
[00:01:49] I was gonna say your whole name, but I ain't gonna say it.
[00:01:52] What's going on, LA?
[00:01:54] Ain't shit.
[00:01:55] The last part, we was talking about...
[00:01:59] Well, me and Joe been talking about this on the side for a while, because we kind of
[00:02:03] been dealing...
[00:02:03] I don't know if necessarily dealing with people like that, but we discussed the concept
[00:02:09] of somebody saying, this is just how I am.
[00:02:12] And how for anything to grow, that mentality has to destroy.
[00:02:19] But do you guys currently have a...
[00:02:22] This is just...
[00:02:23] Matter of fact, I'll lead off.
[00:02:26] I saw that about to happen.
[00:02:29] There is an actual trait that I'm talking to my therapist about currently that I want
[00:02:33] to get rid of, and it's the quote unquote being dismissive.
[00:02:38] Like when I'm not in a space, I don't want to hear anybody.
[00:02:41] I don't want to talk to anybody.
[00:02:43] I don't want to kick it with you.
[00:02:44] I don't want to skate with you.
[00:02:46] I don't want to do nothing, right?
[00:02:47] And it's been coming off as being dismissive.
[00:02:51] Now, I see it as I'm protecting my inner peace.
[00:02:55] So, I know for me to grow into a higher stage of manhood, I have to get rid of my dismissive
[00:03:07] traits.
[00:03:07] And it may stem from me not being able to have tough conversations in the moment.
[00:03:14] Now, in the heat of the moment, I don't want...
[00:03:17] I know how hot I get.
[00:03:18] So, that for me, quote unquote being dismissive is me trying to cool it down.
[00:03:24] But dealing with a fiery person, that may make them even hotter.
[00:03:29] Right?
[00:03:30] So, I'm trying to find a better way to better the situation without making the person feel
[00:03:39] dismissive.
[00:03:41] So, but for a while I was like, yo, that's just how I am.
[00:03:44] Like, I don't want to talk about it.
[00:03:46] I'm not talking about it.
[00:03:48] But I can say, I'm really hot right now.
[00:03:53] Can we come back to this when I'm at a cooler point where we both can articulate ourselves
[00:03:59] in a healthy manner?
[00:03:59] You know, I'm trying to figure out how to source it up.
[00:04:02] Rob Markman, I'm in recovery.
[00:04:03] Rob Markman, I'm in recovery.
[00:04:04] You know?
[00:04:04] So, me and Joe was talking about the whole concept of that's just how I am.
[00:04:10] You got any of those?
[00:04:11] That's just how I am.
[00:04:12] Anybody got any of those?
[00:04:14] Rob Markman, I got one.
[00:04:16] We might want to move that for that.
[00:04:18] Rob Markman, I got one.
[00:04:19] Yeah.
[00:04:20] If not, it's just going to slide.
[00:04:23] Rob Markman, I got one.
[00:04:25] Rob Markman, What about you, Squares?
[00:04:27] Rob Markman, I got one.
[00:04:29] I'm going to adjust myself a little bit.
[00:04:31] All right.
[00:04:33] Rob Markman, Nah.
[00:04:35] You know I'm going to be blushing, motherfucker.
[00:04:36] I'm happy to be here.
[00:04:39] Rob Markman, So, one thing that was like, you know, just the way I am, was like when my
[00:04:45] finances aren't like on point, it's like the romances shut the fuck off.
[00:04:50] Like I don't want to talk about nothing.
[00:04:52] I don't want to kind of like develop anything.
[00:04:55] Like if we're talking, we're dating.
[00:04:56] And like the second I'm like my account gets to turn, I'm like, you gotta go.
[00:05:02] Like, I'm like, let me just get back to work.
[00:05:05] And I, that's been like something like, yo, that's the way I've been for the past couple
[00:05:08] of months now as an entrepreneur.
[00:05:10] A couple of months?
[00:05:11] A couple of years.
[00:05:13] And like, it's funny because like,
[00:05:15] Are we talking about 16, 24 months?
[00:05:17] Shit.
[00:05:18] You know, double digits, baby.
[00:05:20] But it's something now that I'm like, yo, I'm working on, communicating through.
[00:05:25] Mm-hmm.
[00:05:25] Because like, to me, I'm like before it was like, oh man, still I am.
[00:05:28] I shut down.
[00:05:29] I gotta kinda lock back in, get this done, fix this.
[00:05:33] You can't really do nothing.
[00:05:34] You can't be here for me.
[00:05:35] Cause I'm like, what are you gonna do?
[00:05:37] Pay my bills?
[00:05:38] Pay this motherfucker?
[00:05:39] Would you accept the help?
[00:05:41] I'm gonna open myself up to like the possibility of help.
[00:05:45] Yeah.
[00:05:45] But like, I think now what I'm working on is not shying away.
[00:05:52] Like when I'm like feeling that way.
[00:05:55] Or like, cause it's unfair.
[00:05:57] Mm-hmm.
[00:05:57] To like, you know, the person I might be dealing with.
[00:06:00] Because like now, I don't wanna deal with this.
[00:06:03] Mm-hmm.
[00:06:03] Now it's fuck your feelings, fuck your day, fuck everything you got going on.
[00:06:07] I'm the only one with problems.
[00:06:08] And so I fixed my problems, you're non-existent.
[00:06:11] Yeah.
[00:06:11] And like, that's been like a red flag with me for a minute.
[00:06:14] So it's something I'm working on.
[00:06:16] I think it's okay to like, I think it's okay to have some, in sometimes, uh, that's
[00:06:22] just how I am mentality.
[00:06:23] As long as you're aware of how it affects the people around you.
[00:06:27] You ever had a, that's just how I am and-
[00:06:30] Didn't wanna change it?
[00:06:30] There you go.
[00:06:32] No, I've, see, I've never been that way.
[00:06:33] I've always been open to whatever things that I'm used to.
[00:06:37] Whether it, let's say it's little things like, oh, um, I don't eat this or-
[00:06:42] Y'all know I don't like, um, I don't like large bodies of water.
[00:06:46] I'm very, I was very, I was very, that's just how I am.
[00:06:50] Mm-hmm.
[00:06:50] Until I went on vacation.
[00:06:51] Mm-hmm.
[00:06:52] And all I just went out the window because-
[00:06:54] So did you actually get into large body of water?
[00:06:57] Not in it, but I was, I was-
[00:06:58] You was close.
[00:06:59] I was close.
[00:07:00] You know what?
[00:07:01] I think what it, for me, it was the, well, if I was that person you went with, pause
[00:07:07] if necessary, I would just appreciate your attempt.
[00:07:11] Even being there, yeah.
[00:07:12] Yeah, cause it's like, all right, I know Kojo hate water.
[00:07:15] The fact that he got his foot in the sand, I'm not going to be like, Dan Cuttin', the
[00:07:19] fact that he not all the way over there or in his room, the fact that he's this close-
[00:07:23] He could've been on the boardwalk.
[00:07:23] I was the first one out there.
[00:07:24] I appreciate that.
[00:07:26] You know?
[00:07:26] And I think that's a part of it.
[00:07:29] Right.
[00:07:29] The grace that comes with the effort of trying, you know?
[00:07:32] So how I got there, I want to talk about how I got there, right?
[00:07:35] Mm-hmm.
[00:07:36] Cause I think that's very important and maybe it'll help somebody just understanding you
[00:07:39] have, you can have enough conversations with somebody where y'all know y'all on opposite
[00:07:43] the spectrum.
[00:07:43] Yeah.
[00:07:44] But you know, okay, you know that agree to disagree shit.
[00:07:47] That's how y'all live in until you have an opportunity to now say, damn, it's the way
[00:07:51] I've been thinking, can I adjust?
[00:07:53] Can I pivot?
[00:07:54] Can I compromise?
[00:07:55] Mm-hmm.
[00:07:55] And you say, you ask yourself, if I make this decision, will it really affect me?
[00:07:59] How much will it affect me?
[00:08:00] Mm-hmm.
[00:08:00] When I had that conversation with myself and I realized that shit ain't gonna kill you,
[00:08:03] bro.
[00:08:04] In reality, I was like, yo, I'll just make the decision.
[00:08:06] So that's kind of how I moved.
[00:08:08] You were shaking your head.
[00:08:09] You, you, no, no, no.
[00:08:09] Oh, you didn't agree with me?
[00:08:10] Oh, okay.
[00:08:11] Yeah.
[00:08:11] That's how I get to that.
[00:08:14] Like, because we all have things where we feel like they're non-negotiable.
[00:08:18] We feel like they're, yo, I'm not moving off of that square until you sit and think
[00:08:22] about how does it affect you if you do change that a little bit for the person that you
[00:08:26] care about or somebody that you-
[00:08:28] Absolutely.
[00:08:29] So, yeah.
[00:08:30] Do you ever realize, okay, oh, let me see how I get through this.
[00:08:35] Do you ever realize that something that the way I was for X amount of time, you was hard
[00:08:42] no with everybody and then make that change for the next person.
[00:08:48] Yeah.
[00:08:48] What about them was worth the change versus the other people?
[00:08:56] I mean, they provide the space for it.
[00:08:59] Maybe those other people made you, those other people probably didn't make you feel comfortable
[00:09:03] to even like think that way or do that type of thing.
[00:09:06] So this new person makes you feel so comfortable.
[00:09:10] Bonerable.
[00:09:13] You know what's crazy?
[00:09:14] I ain't gonna, I'm a whole shit.
[00:09:17] I'm gonna be the sacrificial lamb on this one.
[00:09:20] All right.
[00:09:20] Lame is good.
[00:09:21] Lame chops.
[00:09:21] Facts.
[00:09:22] Fire.
[00:09:23] Fire.
[00:09:24] So, um, so I was dead hell no one matching pajamas.
[00:09:32] Why?
[00:09:34] I ain't gonna put it.
[00:09:35] Why niggas so damn stubborn?
[00:09:37] I'm getting to the point I understand how much of a lover boy Quanee is because I feel
[00:09:40] the same way.
[00:09:41] Bro, but certain shit is just like, bro.
[00:09:43] I ain't gonna put it.
[00:09:43] I ain't gonna put it.
[00:09:45] I ain't gonna put it.
[00:09:46] I ain't gonna put it.
[00:09:46] I ain't gonna put it.
[00:09:46] I ain't gonna put it.
[00:09:46] I got a whole photo shoot doing that shit.
[00:09:48] Oh, for real?
[00:09:49] Yeah.
[00:09:50] Get the fuck out of here.
[00:09:51] You lying.
[00:09:52] Why?
[00:09:52] That nigga, it was so long ago.
[00:09:53] That shit was in Atlanta.
[00:09:54] You know why I seen that shit before?
[00:09:56] That's crazy.
[00:09:57] So I was like, nah, that's, nah, that's just ew.
[00:10:00] Nigga, I got his and hers fucking glass Halloween sets.
[00:10:05] I'm her boo, she my boo.
[00:10:07] I ain't gonna go in, bro.
[00:10:09] I ain't gonna go in.
[00:10:09] I ain't gonna go in.
[00:10:10] I ain't gonna go in.
[00:10:10] I ain't gonna go in.
[00:10:10] I ain't gonna go in.
[00:10:11] Did you get?
[00:10:14] You gave Shoddy a boo basket?
[00:10:16] Nah, nah, nah.
[00:10:17] Did you get a boo basket?
[00:10:18] Nah, we ain't go that far.
[00:10:19] We had matching on, she got like some sort of Amazon, like some matching set, PJ shit.
[00:10:25] I like that.
[00:10:25] That shit I like though.
[00:10:26] I ain't gonna go in.
[00:10:26] I got a matching green shit.
[00:10:28] She want to do a Thanksgiving and a Christmas shoot.
[00:10:32] You taking the pictures?
[00:10:34] Nah, nah, I'm in the shoot.
[00:10:36] Yeah, so she...
[00:10:37] Put the timer on.
[00:10:38] Work.
[00:10:39] That's what I did.
[00:10:40] Extra work, but yeah.
[00:10:42] But um...
[00:10:42] So yeah, I was a hard no.
[00:10:46] And then, you know...
[00:10:55] I've never done it.
[00:10:55] I was a single one.
[00:10:56] Yeah, yeah, yeah.
[00:10:57] I've still never done it.
[00:10:58] But...
[00:10:58] You will?
[00:10:59] You're willing to do it now?
[00:11:02] If y'all see it in the thread...
[00:11:04] We not gonna see it.
[00:11:05] He gonna put it in the chat.
[00:11:06] In the thumbnail.
[00:11:07] If y'all see it on the thumbnail of the pond and it happened.
[00:11:10] With the dog or no?
[00:11:14] That was sick.
[00:11:16] That's...
[00:11:16] This nigga can't.
[00:11:18] He wanna play, but I can't play.
[00:11:20] No, no, no.
[00:11:20] I'm sorry, bro.
[00:11:22] I'm holding it.
[00:11:23] But nah, so...
[00:11:25] That was insane.
[00:11:27] Oh man.
[00:11:28] But yeah, so there was certain things that I just felt like...
[00:11:31] I'm open to it because if this is going to make the relationship fun or enjoyable,
[00:11:39] then why not?
[00:11:40] Why am I depriving my partner?
[00:11:43] See, that's...
[00:11:44] I don't want the...
[00:11:45] This is just how I am to deprive my partner of anything.
[00:11:48] Oh, this is not...
[00:11:49] You're not fun.
[00:11:50] You're not any fun.
[00:11:50] Yo, jeepod!
[00:11:51] Fuck you sucking your teepod!
[00:11:54] I just move off of a lot of reciprocation because again...
[00:11:58] You have a mic!
[00:12:00] I move off of reciprocation.
[00:12:02] So sometimes, again, the responsibility of always changing and owning up always falls
[00:12:08] on a man.
[00:12:09] That's just...
[00:12:10] Nah, but we not talking about it.
[00:12:11] But we not talking about it.
[00:12:12] We're talking about having...
[00:12:14] Change into somebody.
[00:12:14] No, we're talking about having a, yo, that's just how I am mentality.
[00:12:18] I ain't doing that.
[00:12:19] That's not me.
[00:12:19] I'm not doing that.
[00:12:20] And these experiences have none to do with the person that you met.
[00:12:22] You could have been this way for 18, 19, 20 years.
[00:12:25] That's immature.
[00:12:25] Grow up.
[00:12:26] Change.
[00:12:27] Alright!
[00:12:28] So you...
[00:12:29] Yeah, so you on that side.
[00:12:31] Yeah.
[00:12:31] He was ready to...
[00:12:32] He was on defense mode.
[00:12:33] He was on defense mode.
[00:12:35] We not at war.
[00:12:36] You alright?
[00:12:36] Is everything okay at home?
[00:12:37] We not at war, bro.
[00:12:38] Are you being...
[00:12:39] Is the love that you're giving being reciprocated?
[00:12:42] You can talk to us.
[00:12:42] Or is what's being axed of you being reciprocated?
[00:12:45] You can talk to us.
[00:12:46] You can talk to us.
[00:12:47] And the audience.
[00:12:50] This is not a safe space.
[00:12:54] We'll do it after the pod.
[00:12:56] But nah, I just think, you know, dealing with that on my end, being that person versus dealing
[00:13:04] with that...
[00:13:05] I don't know if I can deal with that though.
[00:13:08] Dude, what...
[00:13:08] I've actually dealt with that actually.
[00:13:09] Somebody saying that's just how I am.
[00:13:12] Yeah, two words.
[00:13:13] Okay.
[00:13:14] How long do you deal with, uh, this is how I am?
[00:13:18] So I want to put in the scenario where you've addressed that something that somebody else
[00:13:23] in your life does bothers you.
[00:13:25] Mm-hmm.
[00:13:25] It affects you negatively.
[00:13:27] Mm-hmm.
[00:13:27] And the initial response is, well, that's just how I am.
[00:13:30] Mm-hmm.
[00:13:31] I don't know if you asked for change, but you let it be known that you would like that
[00:13:33] to change or, you know, be adjusted.
[00:13:35] We can work on it together.
[00:13:36] And every time down the line, that is the response that you met with as well.
[00:13:40] That's just how I am.
[00:13:41] How do you work on it with somebody together?
[00:13:43] If it's their problem?
[00:13:45] It's our problem.
[00:13:46] If I'm fucking with you, it's our problem then.
[00:13:47] Okay.
[00:13:50] Love a boy.
[00:13:51] Oh, Quan, you agree?
[00:13:54] I don't know.
[00:13:55] I don't know.
[00:13:56] I think it's a huh.
[00:13:57] I think Quan is like that nigga, hey!
[00:14:00] I don't know.
[00:14:01] Nah, but imagine, hypothetically, you're dealing with the person.
[00:14:05] The person doesn't like flying, but you like to travel.
[00:14:08] Mm-hmm.
[00:14:08] What do you do?
[00:14:08] Travel by yourself?
[00:14:10] Quan is getting on that plane by himself.
[00:14:12] Quan is on that plane.
[00:14:13] It's one of two things.
[00:14:14] Either we're going to learn to travel or we're not.
[00:14:18] And this is it.
[00:14:19] And when he says we're not, that means-
[00:14:20] That means I'm out of here.
[00:14:21] You're staying home.
[00:14:23] You can FaceTime me later, Nick.
[00:14:25] But Amtrak goes a lot of places.
[00:14:26] Google Amtrak where?
[00:14:28] There's ways of traveling.
[00:14:29] I can compromise on traveling.
[00:14:31] Wait, you would compromise an Amtrak to LA instead of flying?
[00:14:34] Bro, it's-
[00:14:35] Niggas, $18 with Atlanta.
[00:14:37] You think I'm-
[00:14:37] Yeah.
[00:14:38] You could do the cross country.
[00:14:40] If your lady is terrified of flying-
[00:14:42] Yeah, I could compromise and I'll take the train.
[00:14:44] You know what I'm going to do?
[00:14:45] I'll meet you there.
[00:14:46] I want to go somewhere?
[00:14:47] Go on a cruise.
[00:14:48] I'll meet you there.
[00:14:49] Nigga, that's scarier.
[00:14:50] If you take the Amtrak two days before and I take the flight-
[00:14:55] I can't swim, so you say cruise.
[00:14:58] I'm like, no.
[00:14:59] I'm like, you scared to go in the ocean?
[00:15:00] I don't like the big bodies of water, bro.
[00:15:03] Wait, so y'all don't want to-
[00:15:04] This might sound off, but y'all don't want to reserve some of that, this is just how I am?
[00:15:09] Some of it's understandable.
[00:15:10] Like what?
[00:15:11] Give me one of yours that you're reserving.
[00:15:14] Like if somebody's getting me tight, I want to reserve the right to not-
[00:15:18] I don't want to hear you.
[00:15:19] I don't want to deal with this.
[00:15:20] Yeah, but see, me too.
[00:15:21] I want to reserve my dismissiveness, but I know long-term it's not going to be conducive
[00:15:27] to what I want anyway.
[00:15:28] So it's going to hurt the relationship and it's going to hurt my partner and what I want
[00:15:34] with her.
[00:15:35] You see what I'm saying?
[00:15:36] So yeah, I want to reserve the right of like, yo, you getting me tight.
[00:15:41] You talking pure nonsense.
[00:15:42] You are not logical.
[00:15:43] I do not want to hear you.
[00:15:45] Oh, LaShawn, when you do that, it makes me feel sad.
[00:15:49] I'm glad you dismisses me.
[00:15:51] That's just, ah, fuck.
[00:15:54] I just, nah, but technically she don't have to deal with that.
[00:15:57] Because if she leave, is her leaving worth holding on to the, this is-
[00:16:02] This is who I am.
[00:16:03] Nah.
[00:16:03] So do you, have you ever let somebody get their shit off just so you can reserve that?
[00:16:09] Yeah.
[00:16:09] Like, I'm going to let you get that off, but just know when I do it, I don't want to get
[00:16:12] nothing.
[00:16:13] I mean, but then at what point do you realize that like, you know, this is how I am is blocking
[00:16:18] your blessings.
[00:16:19] Yeah.
[00:16:19] Like a lot of shit, not just like relationships.
[00:16:21] Yeah.
[00:16:22] You know what I mean?
[00:16:23] Like this is how I am.
[00:16:24] I want to be entitled to something.
[00:16:25] And now it's just like, you're not going forward.
[00:16:27] You're like shutting your mouth instead of asking for opportunities.
[00:16:30] Yeah.
[00:16:30] Or like, you know, just not putting yourself out there.
[00:16:33] Yeah.
[00:16:33] You know, when do you realize that this is how I am?
[00:16:36] It's stopping me from getting to the next level.
[00:16:39] I like that Skrull's bringing that shit back to that part.
[00:16:41] Yeah.
[00:16:42] That's true too.
[00:16:43] Cause I could say I have some traits that probably is blocking me from the next level.
[00:16:48] Me, me, probably not.
[00:16:49] I see you guys, he's learning.
[00:16:51] Being social.
[00:16:55] It's crazy though.
[00:16:56] Even saying, even you saying that, that blocks your blessings.
[00:16:59] Cause I ain't gonna front.
[00:17:00] I didn't want to do video.
[00:17:02] Really?
[00:17:02] Did not want to do video.
[00:17:03] I was, I was hell bent on just doing photo and that was it.
[00:17:06] So like one of my hard no's for a while, like this is like back in like 2017, right?
[00:17:11] When I was on my hiatus, I was like, yeah, I'm never throwing a party again.
[00:17:14] No, no, no, no, no.
[00:17:17] That was like in Williamsburg.
[00:17:18] And I was like, it got to a point where I was blocking my blessings.
[00:17:21] I was like, yo, what am I going to do?
[00:17:23] Stop my talent?
[00:17:25] But that was like, it was such like a crazy no.
[00:17:27] Like I was like, I'm not going to say I'm a promoter anymore.
[00:17:29] I'm not going to do this.
[00:17:30] I'm not going to do that.
[00:17:31] Cause I was like so hurt by the past situation and whatnot.
[00:17:36] But like that no was kind of blocking me from, you know, where I'm at now.
[00:17:40] Where I was like, you know what?
[00:17:41] Let me just say yes.
[00:17:43] And then life kind of moved out the way.
[00:17:44] Y'all got any no's right now because of y'all past hurt?
[00:17:49] A past hurt?
[00:17:50] Yeah.
[00:17:51] Or did y'all develop any hard no's currently because of y'all past hurt?
[00:17:58] Yes.
[00:17:59] Yes.
[00:17:59] What's one of them?
[00:18:00] Come on, Preacher.
[00:18:01] We about to pod down.
[00:18:03] Yeah.
[00:18:03] Preacher.
[00:18:04] Okay.
[00:18:06] I said I would never live with a woman again until I'm married.
[00:18:10] Oh, thanks.
[00:18:12] All right.
[00:18:13] I think for me, um...
[00:18:16] Who you lived with before?
[00:18:19] Wait, wait, tell me about that.
[00:18:20] I didn't, that nigga gave you no type of...
[00:18:23] Yo.
[00:18:24] The nigga...
[00:18:25] I ain't gonna lie.
[00:18:25] I've never seen Prejuice or shit like that before bro.
[00:18:28] Just not showing up the spruce.
[00:18:29] No, I'm not.
[00:18:30] No, no, bro.
[00:18:31] We can take it out.
[00:18:32] I'm never gonna put a name on the buzzer, but I have.
[00:18:34] For real?
[00:18:35] Yeah.
[00:18:35] I never knew that about you.
[00:18:37] Yeah.
[00:18:38] Oh shit.
[00:18:39] Okay.
[00:18:40] Damn.
[00:18:41] You did that young.
[00:18:43] Fuck.
[00:18:44] Okay.
[00:18:45] For me...
[00:18:46] I was gonna say for me, um, I think...
[00:18:51] I don't even wanna say it's a hard no, but it's about being public on social media with
[00:18:57] my relationship.
[00:18:57] I think I learned from my past relationships about how to navigate that and if it's even
[00:19:05] beneficial at all.
[00:19:07] You know why it's a good...
[00:19:08] I don't wanna say it's a good thing, but I learned from other peoples.
[00:19:12] Even that too.
[00:19:13] Posting that shit is like...
[00:19:14] You learned a little bit from others?
[00:19:16] It's like niggas posting everything gravy, but in the background it's like, shit is nasty
[00:19:20] works is like, nah, I don't want that.
[00:19:22] I don't want...
[00:19:22] I think the main thing for me was like, I remember in a past relationship where it was online.
[00:19:27] It was a lot of online stuff.
[00:19:30] People were able to comment on it and show their love.
[00:19:33] And I remember remembering when things went sour.
[00:19:37] Um, I just felt like damn everybody that was in my comments and showing love and doing
[00:19:42] all that.
[00:19:42] Like where was y'all at?
[00:19:43] When I was like, it wasn't good.
[00:19:46] And I realized like, damn this shit is not real at all.
[00:19:50] Like I'm just putting on a show and thinking that it has any type of value.
[00:19:54] Like, first reality TV.
[00:19:56] You know what I'm saying?
[00:19:57] So instead of saying, yo, I need to put on this show for my...
[00:20:00] I'm not judging nobody who does this public relationship.
[00:20:04] But for me, I think I realized like, yo, this don't serve me.
[00:20:08] So I'm okay with not having to put it in your face every fucking day.
[00:20:13] Like this is not my identity.
[00:20:14] What are you saying?
[00:20:15] What are you saying?
[00:20:16] Can, um, hmm.
[00:20:18] Can that situation just be that situation?
[00:20:21] And no, I think people, that's how people are.
[00:20:23] I think I took from me and what also Donna's saying is watching others.
[00:20:27] And you realize like, damn, like, even if I'm not in the comments myself, I realize
[00:20:30] that that's what other people are doing still to this day.
[00:20:32] I'm talking, this is 10 years ago.
[00:20:33] You're just looking at it like, there ain't shit change.
[00:20:35] Niggas is going to be under your comments and mad love, all this.
[00:20:39] And they'll never be able to truly understand what's going on in your home.
[00:20:44] I don't know if it's really going, if this shit is really going well or not.
[00:20:47] They're not beneficial at all.
[00:20:49] Yeah.
[00:20:49] Yeah.
[00:20:50] I just got, yeah.
[00:20:51] And it might even cause more issues by being on the internet, which is shit.
[00:20:57] I don't want to pivot it too much.
[00:20:58] I'm going to cut you off screens.
[00:20:59] Say something, say something.
[00:21:00] Say something.
[00:21:02] Yeah.
[00:21:03] I'm like, I'm never speaking about any bad things in a relationship to friends or peers
[00:21:09] or like, or like even like letting in like, like any, any public discourse outside of
[00:21:15] my relationship.
[00:21:16] Oh, public discourse.
[00:21:16] I got you.
[00:21:16] Or like, you know, in general, because the thing is, you know, once your friends perception
[00:21:20] of like who you're with changes and you're going to still forgive them, you know, now
[00:21:27] they look at you crazy.
[00:21:28] You got to understand your friends though, right?
[00:21:30] Yeah.
[00:21:30] You got to be able to understand that if you, if you confide in your friends on personal,
[00:21:34] on personal intimate matters, you kind of want your friends to be nonjudgmental, logical,
[00:21:41] not always on your side.
[00:21:43] Yeah.
[00:21:43] Be able to talk to somebody who's going to be like, my nigga, you don't get it.
[00:21:46] You don't get my eyes.
[00:21:47] Yeah.
[00:21:47] I'm not always on your side.
[00:21:49] Yeah.
[00:21:49] I'm not always on Kojo's side.
[00:21:51] Yeah.
[00:21:51] Like sometimes you got to be able to pick up the phone and know that on the other, on the
[00:21:54] other line, the person that you're speaking to is not just a yes man or yeah.
[00:21:59] Or a condolence.
[00:22:00] Or a balance.
[00:22:01] Can't just be a little negative.
[00:22:03] Yeah.
[00:22:04] Yeah.
[00:22:04] Yeah.
[00:22:04] Yeah.
[00:22:04] Yeah.
[00:22:05] Yeah.
[00:22:20] Yeah.
[00:22:27] Yeah.
[00:22:28] Yeah.
[00:22:28] Yeah.
[00:22:28] I mean, I've got to do that.
[00:22:32] Yeah.
[00:22:33] I mean I've got to do that.
[00:22:33] I've got to do that.
[00:22:33] Yeah.
[00:22:33] That's the thing.
[00:22:34] Yeah.
[00:22:35] Yeah.
[00:22:36] Yeah.
[00:22:40] I mean, I do not, I do not deprive myself through rest and I do not work to be tired.
[00:22:46] I'm tired.
[00:22:47] I'm tired.
[00:22:47] That's it.
[00:22:48] I'm getting better at it.
[00:22:49] Yeah.
[00:22:49] Yeah.
[00:22:50] Fuck.
[00:22:50] You know what it is?
[00:22:52] Sean gon' nap.
[00:22:54] I'm gonna nap after this.
[00:22:55] Every time, I always think about this shit now.
[00:22:58] There was one night I shot at an event.
[00:23:00] I was fucking exhausted.
[00:23:01] I don't know if I talk about it in a pod.
[00:23:03] I'm on the Jackie.
[00:23:04] I fall asleep on the Jackie.
[00:23:06] Damn.
[00:23:07] At that turn.
[00:23:10] I'm traumatized when I come right past that church block.
[00:23:13] Every time I just think about how tired I was, total in my car, and I made it off the
[00:23:20] Jackie, but as soon as I'm on the sidewalk, I passed out and fell asleep.
[00:23:24] And I got to...
[00:23:25] That's gotta save me your ass.
[00:23:26] Cause if you fell asleep on a Jackie like that...
[00:23:29] I will never do this again.
[00:23:31] I'll never be tired like that again.
[00:23:32] I can't.
[00:23:33] Yeah, I do that.
[00:23:34] I feel iffy on the public relationship.
[00:23:40] Now, granted, I haven't been in one in years.
[00:23:45] 2018?
[00:23:46] Nah, not even that.
[00:23:48] No.
[00:23:49] It wasn't that public, but Saturday.
[00:23:51] 2017.
[00:23:52] Yeah, 2017.
[00:23:54] 2017.
[00:23:56] Yeah.
[00:23:56] Yeah, we ain't gotta go too much for it.
[00:24:01] I'm in public to the point where...
[00:24:03] No, it was public, bro.
[00:24:04] So they knew...
[00:24:05] Niggas at events.
[00:24:06] Snapchat.
[00:24:08] Yeah, it was public.
[00:24:09] Being at events is different.
[00:24:10] Public, when you say public, you mean like...
[00:24:12] Social media to the world.
[00:24:13] Oh, no.
[00:24:14] He was posting this.
[00:24:15] He was on vacation.
[00:24:16] Yeah, so like shit like that.
[00:24:18] Like, I don't know.
[00:24:19] I don't know.
[00:24:20] Cause I gotta figure out what's my reason for not doing it.
[00:24:24] And I can't always chuck it up to the past, bro.
[00:24:28] Like my past did this.
[00:24:30] So, I'm not...
[00:24:31] If that's the case, I'm never dating again.
[00:24:33] Cause what if she likes to...
[00:24:35] She loves to be seen publicly.
[00:24:38] You gotta know your partner.
[00:24:39] You know your partner.
[00:24:41] They just wanna be shown off.
[00:24:43] Yo, I ain't gonna front preachers.
[00:24:44] So show more.
[00:24:45] They wanna be shown off.
[00:24:45] But they deserve some of this Hulk in them.
[00:24:46] Most of them deserve to be shown off.
[00:24:48] You put a trophy in a trophy case.
[00:24:52] You understand?
[00:24:54] The Larry O'Brien is sitting behind the scenes in the Lakers shit in a cabinet.
[00:25:00] Because you guard the things that you protect.
[00:25:04] So if you wanna be shown off, I'm just showing you off to more of the hounds.
[00:25:08] Like it don't equate to me.
[00:25:12] If you're my trophy, I'm tucking you away.
[00:25:15] Because this is something that...
[00:25:16] Okay.
[00:25:16] But when you're not around, isn't she not around the hounds regardless?
[00:25:21] No, she inside.
[00:25:23] No, when you're not around.
[00:25:24] That's inside.
[00:25:24] Well, nah.
[00:25:25] See, I...
[00:25:26] I don't stand with this.
[00:25:28] Be inside.
[00:25:29] Be creative.
[00:25:30] Find a hobby.
[00:25:31] Don't be at St. every weekend.
[00:25:33] Oh my God.
[00:25:34] I ain't gonna lie.
[00:25:35] They don't have to pay us, bro.
[00:25:36] I ain't gonna lie.
[00:25:36] They gotta bring up margaritas here, bro.
[00:25:38] Stop bringing the shit up, bro.
[00:25:40] Come on.
[00:25:41] Shout out to James.
[00:25:43] Shout out to James.
[00:25:44] What if...
[00:25:45] What if...
[00:25:47] There's certain things that we...
[00:25:49] The way we grew up, we didn't grow up in a certain manner versus a partner who grew
[00:25:55] up in a certain manner, right?
[00:25:56] Like, so maybe...
[00:25:57] I'll be about it.
[00:25:58] Maybe they grew up in a lovable, infectionist space.
[00:26:02] Well, maybe they didn't grow up like that at all.
[00:26:06] But for your relationship to work, there's a certain need that you may want.
[00:26:11] Maybe a certain level of communication.
[00:26:14] Maybe your style of disappearing and coming back in.
[00:26:17] If you're saying this, it's mad funny.
[00:26:20] Bro, I was a heavy no-cuddler.
[00:26:21] Oh yeah, we in that bag.
[00:26:23] That's how we gon' go.
[00:26:25] I was a heavy no-cuddler, bro.
[00:26:26] Yo, my just how I am was physical touch.
[00:26:29] I'm good.
[00:26:30] It was not my bag, bro.
[00:26:31] I was not on physical touch.
[00:26:31] And it still is not my bag.
[00:26:33] It's still not my bag.
[00:26:34] I just had to adjust.
[00:26:35] Like, why you keep hugging me?
[00:26:37] Like, why you keep hugging me?
[00:26:38] Like, why you keep doing this with my bag?
[00:26:39] I'm like, you good?
[00:26:40] Yeah, like...
[00:26:41] You good?
[00:26:42] You alright?
[00:26:43] You good?
[00:26:44] You know what's crazy?
[00:26:45] I don't know if I ever had this conversation with y'all.
[00:26:47] But I thought I was alone in that.
[00:26:49] Nah, nah.
[00:26:50] I didn't like that shit.
[00:26:51] All my niggas probably liked this shit.
[00:26:52] I don't know.
[00:26:53] I thought I was a problem for real.
[00:26:54] Shorty used to touch me, but you alright, babe?
[00:26:56] I was like, yo, bro, you didn't have to touch me to say that, bro.
[00:26:59] You worse for me.
[00:27:00] So, I'm like, but, man, like I'm saying, I was rough.
[00:27:04] I didn't know how to be in that shit.
[00:27:06] So, it's like, you touching me?
[00:27:07] Why you touching me for?
[00:27:08] We get past six, eight kisses for the day, like, ah!
[00:27:12] You know, do you feel loved?
[00:27:15] You good?
[00:27:16] Nah, I be locking lips, bro.
[00:27:18] Nah, you kiss me out.
[00:27:19] I don't care.
[00:27:20] Put your tongue in my throat.
[00:27:23] Don Pisa.
[00:27:26] But, yo, I feel like we grew after a while.
[00:27:28] It's like, nah, I fuck with that.
[00:27:29] Like, we work so hard.
[00:27:31] We be so locked in what we doing.
[00:27:32] Like, that affection, that shit helps us a little bit.
[00:27:34] Now, what about-
[00:27:34] We get to be small, like, oh, come on, cover me up.
[00:27:37] Nah, yo, bro.
[00:27:37] Y'all don't, y'all don't, when y'all don't, when y'all don't,
[00:27:39] when y'all don't, when y'all don't, y'all don't feel the stimulation
[00:27:41] through y'all body just in.
[00:27:42] Yeah, my body's shaking a little bit.
[00:27:43] It's like a 90's music video.
[00:27:45] It's a little electric rush.
[00:27:46] Don't touch me.
[00:27:47] Just shake that ass.
[00:27:48] You feel me?
[00:27:50] This thing, yo, bro, what is it?
[00:27:52] I don't know you ain't doing it, man.
[00:27:53] Oh, we told you ain't doing it.
[00:27:55] Oh, he's walking down the deal, eh?
[00:27:58] You're getting better, bro.
[00:28:00] You're getting better.
[00:28:00] You're getting better.
[00:28:01] You're getting better, bro.
[00:28:01] You're getting better.
[00:28:02] You're a month ago.
[00:28:03] Yo, I am.
[00:28:06] Okay, now, if we're on this physical topic or anything that aligns with it, what about
[00:28:13] now that period of time where you establish, okay, this is not my love language.
[00:28:18] This is not my bag.
[00:28:19] I don't like it, but you know that that is your partner's bag or whoever you're dealing
[00:28:22] with's bag, right?
[00:28:24] Now there's a space where you have to make a decision if you're going to indulge or
[00:28:29] not.
[00:28:29] But you also understand, for you to get here, you got to do the work in the middle.
[00:28:35] If you don't, you never get in here.
[00:28:38] How do y'all feel about that time period?
[00:28:40] Are you making conscious decisions?
[00:28:41] Do you just let it happen naturally?
[00:28:47] Like you say, I'm going to walk out the door.
[00:28:49] You know what?
[00:28:50] It sucks, but it kind of becomes like, and here's my issue.
[00:28:57] Here's my issue.
[00:28:58] I dated a woman who wasn't an affectionate person.
[00:29:03] That shit was like-
[00:29:06] My nigga, you hanging out with your mans.
[00:29:08] Nah, y'all niggas is more affectionate than she was, bro.
[00:29:12] Like, yo, you blood?
[00:29:13] Like, what the fuck is wrong with you?
[00:29:17] Oh, man.
[00:29:20] Like, you heathen.
[00:29:22] It's a balance.
[00:29:24] Nah, no, no, bro.
[00:29:25] I don't want to be-
[00:29:26] I got a bobo-
[00:29:26] Bro, she's not an affectionate person.
[00:29:28] She's not an affectionate.
[00:29:29] She wasn't an affectionate.
[00:29:30] And when she tried-
[00:29:31] It's mad cringy.
[00:29:33] It's mad cringy.
[00:29:34] There you go.
[00:29:35] Okay, but what about the effort?
[00:29:35] That was the word.
[00:29:36] No, no, no.
[00:29:36] And I talked about the effort.
[00:29:38] But it's like my nigga-
[00:29:39] I talked about the effort, right?
[00:29:40] I don't like it.
[00:29:40] I don't like it.
[00:29:41] But here's the thing.
[00:29:42] It kind of felt like she was punching in for a job.
[00:29:45] Like, all right.
[00:29:46] Here, nigga.
[00:29:46] Yeah!
[00:29:48] Yeah, nigga.
[00:29:49] I'm telling you, nigga.
[00:29:50] This fucking affection, nigga.
[00:29:51] I saw you yesterday.
[00:29:53] You want to hug again?
[00:29:53] Like, yo, you don't even do it right.
[00:29:56] Like, okay.
[00:29:58] Do you fulfill for that?
[00:30:00] You just understand that's not for you.
[00:30:01] Bye.
[00:30:04] I'm not for them, but it just don't feel organic neither.
[00:30:07] So it's like-
[00:30:08] But you know it's not organic.
[00:30:09] You forcing the affection?
[00:30:12] I don't know.
[00:30:12] Just stay paru.
[00:30:13] Like, I don't-
[00:30:14] Yeah, it is.
[00:30:16] Be a gangbanger.
[00:30:17] Dude, yeah, yeah.
[00:30:18] Don't even-
[00:30:18] Stay paru is crazy.
[00:30:19] Don't drop your flag.
[00:30:20] Just go thug it out, bro.
[00:30:21] Okay, I get what you're saying, but-
[00:30:23] I do kind of got to applaud the effort for somebody who has looked at you and said,
[00:30:27] damn, this ain't what I usually do.
[00:30:30] But for you-
[00:30:31] But you ain't good at it.
[00:30:32] Yeah.
[00:30:32] Nah, I ain't good at it yet.
[00:30:33] You ain't good at it yet.
[00:30:34] You ain't good at it yet.
[00:30:36] I think I've gotten better at being affectionate through my times.
[00:30:40] I know at first it would look rough.
[00:30:42] It looked staged.
[00:30:43] It looked like thawed out until it became-
[00:30:47] I'm not as proud of a cop alive.
[00:30:49] You know what I'm saying?
[00:30:51] Sometimes I do do the random kisses when I just see them laying down.
[00:30:54] You know what I'm saying?
[00:30:54] You gotta do that sometimes.
[00:30:55] But once it gets to overload, it's like, get the fuck away.
[00:31:01] You know what's crazy?
[00:31:02] Were you kissed as a child?
[00:31:04] No.
[00:31:04] Not at all.
[00:31:33] It goes into that.
[00:31:35] I mean, it's like parents having sex.
[00:31:36] Not even on something like, uh.
[00:31:38] No.
[00:31:38] I'm talking about like, yo, I've never even seen them dap each other.
[00:31:41] Like as people.
[00:31:42] Yeah.
[00:31:43] Like, yo, how did y'all-
[00:31:44] They don't like each other for real.
[00:31:45] How did y'all do that?
[00:31:47] Like, for me, I'll be in-
[00:31:49] Like, my kids gonna know, oh, my dad was laying my mother through the sheets.
[00:31:53] Oh, my kids are laying my mother.
[00:31:56] Because they're going to see like, you know what I'm saying?
[00:31:59] Hold on, let me lay it.
[00:32:00] The way you move now, the reason why I did that is because that's what you want from your life.
[00:32:03] Right.
[00:32:04] So that's what me and Quanee are saying versus I didn't let being seeing that or being deprived of
[00:32:10] that stopped me from giving that.
[00:32:11] Go for it.
[00:32:12] You know, versus-
[00:32:13] I had an instance though.
[00:32:15] I'll never forget it.
[00:32:16] In a past relationship where this was a problem, right?
[00:32:19] This was a problem.
[00:32:20] Oh, you're not as affectionate as I would want you to be.
[00:32:22] And, you know, I made these conscious efforts to try to be that, right?
[00:32:25] Because I cared.
[00:32:26] And I remember because you, Preacher just said something about sneaking the kisses while you're like laying down or whatever.
[00:32:31] I remember I did that once and the reactions, like they jumped out of their sleep.
[00:32:36] And it was like, I actually got like hit in the face.
[00:32:38] Oh, she blood too.
[00:32:41] And for me, I was like, damn, like I tried to like go to the next level and be better.
[00:32:48] And that's how I was met with it.
[00:32:49] And I was just so like disheartened.
[00:32:51] I was like, man, I ain't doing this shit no longer.
[00:32:52] You know what's funny?
[00:32:53] Same shit happening here.
[00:32:54] Yeah, bro.
[00:32:54] It means that's the tough, because now you're trying.
[00:32:56] It's like going up the hill and then you get-
[00:32:58] Bro, you're not expecting that.
[00:32:59] Yeah, yeah, yeah.
[00:32:59] It's unexpected.
[00:33:00] So it's like, yo, it's a shock.
[00:33:01] So it's like, you got to-
[00:33:02] That's like, I had to sit there for a minute.
[00:33:03] Like, yo, bro, I know you just hit me this ass.
[00:33:05] Yeah, I remember that.
[00:33:09] It says more about me, because it's just like my character to do that.
[00:33:14] Wait, so you're talking about if you reach out to touch somebody?
[00:33:17] Nah, shorty sleeping, I kiss her.
[00:33:19] She's like, oh, startled her hit me.
[00:33:21] Like, it startled her.
[00:33:21] Maybe because she thought you said that in her-
[00:33:24] Yeah, it says more about you.
[00:33:26] Yeah, my man.
[00:33:27] Fact, fact.
[00:33:27] I'll agree.
[00:33:28] It says more about the individual.
[00:33:29] It's like, damn, you damn.
[00:33:31] A kiss going to make her jump?
[00:33:40] I used to put a fucking timer on.
[00:33:42] Let me make sure I-
[00:33:42] Oh, nah, you see?
[00:33:44] That's what I felt like Nabil was doing.
[00:33:47] That's crazy.
[00:33:47] What?
[00:33:47] Yes, bro.
[00:33:48] A timer?
[00:33:49] I-
[00:33:50] Not a timer, but I was looking at the timer.
[00:33:51] No, no, no, no, no, dead ass.
[00:33:52] Like, no, no, no, no, no.
[00:33:53] Don't even preface it.
[00:33:55] Yes, it may be intentional, but it feels so fake, bro.
[00:33:59] Like-
[00:33:59] That can't come.
[00:34:00] Because it's like a vibe.
[00:34:01] Yeah, it's not like-
[00:34:03] It's not a-
[00:34:03] I know it ain't you.
[00:34:05] You can feel somebody forcing it, yo.
[00:34:08] Like-
[00:34:08] Excellent.
[00:34:09] And that shit made my skin crawl.
[00:34:11] Shout out to them, though.
[00:34:11] I hope they good in life.
[00:34:12] But like right now, like-
[00:34:14] Ugh.
[00:34:15] Like, no.
[00:34:15] Like, I'd rather you not touch me.
[00:34:18] I'll go deprived because you suck at this.
[00:34:20] Damn.
[00:34:21] So would you-
[00:34:22] I mean, hypothetically, would you have stayed with that person?
[00:34:25] Now you're not getting the affection you-
[00:34:26] No, no, no, no, no.
[00:34:27] No, no, no, no, no, no.
[00:34:28] No.
[00:34:29] That's-
[00:34:29] Listen.
[00:34:30] Listen, compatibility is a real thing.
[00:34:33] She need to-
[00:34:34] Well, she may find somebody-
[00:34:36] One or two things may happen.
[00:34:38] She may find somebody who's not as affectionate as her, and it may work out because it balanced
[00:34:43] them out.
[00:34:44] It might change her, actually.
[00:34:45] Or she may find somebody not affectionate and realize-
[00:34:49] Oh, yeah.
[00:34:49] I was wanting-
[00:34:51] One or two things I don't wish in either or, because you know, wherever you land is where
[00:34:55] you land.
[00:34:55] But that's how that's-
[00:34:57] Find who's compatible for you.
[00:34:59] If you find a non-affectionate person and you not affectionate, and y'all feel like y'all
[00:35:03] could just exist and that's all that matters, cool.
[00:35:08] Rock out.
[00:35:09] Right?
[00:35:10] But for me, I'm not staying.
[00:35:12] No.
[00:35:13] I-
[00:35:13] Both of you can't be non-affectionate.
[00:35:15] It may work.
[00:35:16] No.
[00:35:17] A negative was a negative.
[00:35:18] Negative was positive.
[00:35:18] I say that shit every night.
[00:35:20] It may work.
[00:35:21] It may-
[00:35:22] Somebody's going to change like, nah, I'm fine.
[00:35:23] I don't like how this is- I feel like I'm hanging out with my mans.
[00:35:25] It may work.
[00:35:27] But even then, affection don't even have to be the physical.
[00:35:31] We recorded for like five hours today.
[00:35:34] As much- We laughed mad hard.
[00:35:37] We choked.
[00:35:38] We bonded.
[00:35:38] We touched each other in playful manners.
[00:35:41] Bro, none of that was happening, bro.
[00:35:43] Bro, no.
[00:35:44] You not making me feel like I'm retired at 22 years.
[00:35:48] Like, no, we not doing that.
[00:35:50] There's no liveliness here.
[00:35:52] We're dying.
[00:35:54] And I want to live.
[00:35:56] I want to feel.
[00:35:57] I want my relationship to feel-
[00:35:59] I never noticed that.
[00:36:00] Oh, here he go.
[00:36:01] There he go.
[00:36:02] Just throwing the flag, bro.
[00:36:03] We got him, y'all.
[00:36:04] We got a flag on the flag.
[00:36:06] That's what most married men say?
[00:36:07] Because probably most married men are in a situation where they chose to-
[00:36:12] Yeah, they thought everything was going to be good.
[00:36:15] And then it just went awry.
[00:36:17] Well, first of all-
[00:36:18] Why is that a common story?
[00:36:19] Preach can't speak for all married men.
[00:36:20] Yes.
[00:36:20] Preach can't speak for all married men.
[00:36:21] And you can talk into the mic as a musical recording engineer-
[00:36:25] I can't talk for all married men.
[00:36:28] However.
[00:36:29] However, I do speak to a good amount of married men.
[00:36:34] No, you speak for many men.
[00:36:36] All right, chill off.
[00:36:37] I speak to quite-
[00:36:39] Wait, Steph.
[00:36:41] I can't talk for that.
[00:36:43] And they-
[00:36:44] I mean, I feel like we did this already, but-
[00:36:47] For real.
[00:36:47] That's-
[00:36:48] No, you-
[00:36:49] And a lot of sexless marriages-
[00:36:51] A lot of sexless marriages-
[00:36:53] So nigga, going on the rent.
[00:36:54] And then nigga cheats and then they want-
[00:36:56] Oh yeah, we done it.
[00:36:57] Yo, yo.
[00:36:58] Niggas sick.
[00:37:00] It's a lot of-
[00:37:02] I died.
[00:37:03] Yeah.
[00:37:04] I digress.
[00:37:04] All right, so what's everybody's hard knowing business?
[00:37:07] Business?
[00:37:09] Well, there's a boundary and then there's hard no.
[00:37:13] There's no.
[00:37:13] So this is not a hard no thing.
[00:37:15] This is just how I am.
[00:37:18] Okay.
[00:37:18] Right?
[00:37:19] Because a hard no, I have some hard no's.
[00:37:24] Don't ask me to do something that you can't afford the person who you really want them
[00:37:29] to do it.
[00:37:29] Like, don't ask for me to make a video.
[00:37:33] Oh, let me see-
[00:37:34] You know how we do like inspo sheets or whatever?
[00:37:37] And it's nothing but Don Peasley's work.
[00:37:40] Go pay Don Peasley.
[00:37:42] Don't ask me to duplicate him for half the price.
[00:37:45] You know what's funny?
[00:37:46] That actually turned into one of mine.
[00:37:47] Seeing you always do that by Angle.
[00:37:49] I don't like that though.
[00:37:50] Yeah.
[00:37:50] If you want that person to go over there, because I don't want to imitate what that
[00:37:54] person got going on.
[00:37:54] Yeah, yeah, yeah.
[00:37:55] Exactly.
[00:37:56] Don't ask me for a photo shoot like what Kwani did.
[00:38:01] Right?
[00:38:02] Ain't because Kwani's a little bit more pricier.
[00:38:05] No.
[00:38:06] I'm not doing it.
[00:38:08] That's a hard no.
[00:38:10] Now, some of my ... That's just how I am.
[00:38:17] Rob Markman 1- I take a little while to respond to emails.
[00:38:21] That's just how I am.
[00:38:23] Unfortunately, bro, I just ...
[00:38:27] Man, it's been a while since I've actually been in business business, but ...
[00:38:33] Even you not talking to people at work.
[00:38:36] That's great.
[00:38:37] That's how you are.
[00:38:38] That's just how I am.
[00:38:39] Yo, that's fact.
[00:38:40] That's ...
[00:38:42] Yeah.
[00:38:43] Matter of fact, it was ... I worked with my mans, Mike.
[00:38:48] We all got hired together.
[00:38:50] Me, Don, and Mike got hired together, and we were actually working a flight.
[00:38:53] After that flight, I was like, yo, that's the most I've ever talked to anybody in a
[00:38:59] two-day, three-day span.
[00:39:01] I'm like, oh, that kind of made the job go by a little bit faster.
[00:39:05] What, will you change?
[00:39:06] No, because that's just how I am.
[00:39:10] Nah, for me ... What do you think the ... That's just how I am is protecting you from?
[00:39:18] For me, I'll give more context.
[00:39:20] Me not talking to people, and my job protects me from anything going wrong.
[00:39:26] You can't say LaShawn spoke to you a certain way.
[00:39:30] LaShawn-
[00:39:30] Distracting you.
[00:39:30] Distracting you.
[00:39:31] Well, whatever.
[00:39:32] Nope.
[00:39:32] Nope.
[00:39:33] Nope.
[00:39:33] Good morning.
[00:39:34] Oh, I feel LaShawn flirted with me.
[00:39:37] Sexual harassment.
[00:39:38] Nope.
[00:39:38] You're protecting yourself from that deep of a ...
[00:39:40] Yes, because my job is ... Yes.
[00:39:42] Yes.
[00:39:43] In a workforce, in a corporate workspace where any and everything can be considered something,
[00:39:48] and I'm in a field where I am the extreme minority.
[00:39:52] Minority, yeah.
[00:39:53] I'm straight and I'm black.
[00:39:55] Yeah, man.
[00:39:56] I'm protecting myself.
[00:39:56] They get you out of here, quit.
[00:39:57] Yeah, I'm protecting myself.
[00:39:58] Traits black male, yeah.
[00:39:59] Yeah, I'm protecting myself all the way through.
[00:40:02] It gets spooky, bro.
[00:40:04] I tell this story ... I don't know if I ever ... I think I told it to Don.
[00:40:08] Yeah, because I told Don because I was hot as fuck.
[00:40:10] Pause.
[00:40:11] Well, not pause.
[00:40:11] Whatever.
[00:40:14] After the trip, after we worked this long trip, right?
[00:40:17] We get to the hotel, and the person in charge of the flight district,
[00:40:23] we're going to distribute the keys.
[00:40:26] And homie ... It's four of us, so it's four keys.
[00:40:31] Homie going to say, you don't need your key, right?
[00:40:35] Who we said that to?
[00:40:38] Dude, what?
[00:40:39] Exactly.
[00:40:40] Who we said that to?
[00:40:41] Me.
[00:40:42] Who we said that to?
[00:40:43] Yo, Joe.
[00:40:44] And you know me.
[00:40:45] You know me, and I'm like, yo, bro ...
[00:40:47] Yo, bro, stop fighting with me, bro.
[00:40:48] Dances are loose.
[00:40:50] I literally ... Yo, bro.
[00:40:52] I literally ...
[00:40:53] I had to pull myself together.
[00:40:55] The nigga had cooking the stat sheet, nigga said, home.
[00:40:57] Yo, I just ...
[00:40:59] Any way I reacted, I would've lost.
[00:41:02] Because the way I would've ...
[00:41:04] Overly massive.
[00:41:05] Yeah, it'd been over.
[00:41:06] I'm just thinking of all the ways I would've reacted.
[00:41:08] Yeah, you know what I'm saying?
[00:41:10] And then knowing like, yo, this is ...
[00:41:11] I'm at work still.
[00:41:12] This is going to laugh.
[00:41:13] I'm still at work.
[00:41:14] I'm still in my uniform.
[00:41:15] I ain't in a hotel.
[00:41:16] I literally looked up.
[00:41:18] There's mad cameras here.
[00:41:20] Like, I could not ... Yo, bro, son.
[00:41:22] Even talking about it now still gets me fucking mad, bro.
[00:41:25] You should've been like,
[00:41:26] Like, yo, bro.
[00:41:28] Yeah, dude.
[00:41:29] So I said, yo, one of two things going to happen here.
[00:41:36] The receptionist at the hotel just heard it.
[00:41:38] She look like ... She looking like she is anticipating how I'm about to react.
[00:41:44] So I said, and her look, I'm like, one of two things is going to happen here.
[00:41:50] Ma'am, you're going to cut me a new key that's not on this sheet, or you're going to be fired
[00:41:57] in the morning because I'm going to say you sexually harassing me here.
[00:42:00] The man looked at her and she was like ... She looked ... No, I don't say keep you out of it.
[00:42:06] You was anticipating me.
[00:42:08] You was watching.
[00:42:09] So, so like, yo, bro, when I say that's why I ... Yo, bro, I come to my job.
[00:42:14] I do ... Like I said, I'm a double minority here.
[00:42:16] So that's just how I am.
[00:42:19] And it's staying like that.
[00:42:20] That protects me from ... So I do feel like there are certain that's just how I am situations
[00:42:26] that protects you from yourself or from being misunderstood.
[00:42:33] Because sometimes there are certain things about me that I know that maybe one, I probably
[00:42:37] don't articulate the best.
[00:42:38] Or two, it's just the way my brain works.
[00:42:40] I understand it and I don't really need anybody else to understand it.
[00:42:44] So I lean on the, yo, this is just how I am.
[00:42:48] I don't care if you get it or not, but I ...
[00:42:50] As long as in a healthy way.
[00:42:51] Like that's it.
[00:42:52] It's cool.
[00:42:53] Healthy, uh ... healthy ... healthy ... healthy ... healthy, uh ... what am I trying to
[00:43:01] say?
[00:43:02] Boundaries?
[00:43:02] Healthy boundaries.
[00:43:03] So I would ... Yeah.
[00:43:06] Yeah.
[00:43:08] You think you got any deaths of just how I am that's affecting your parenting?
[00:43:12] Whoa.
[00:43:15] Yo, that's a fucking awesome question.
[00:43:19] Something affecting my parenting?
[00:43:21] Sorry.
[00:43:21] But it's kind of hard to think back.
[00:43:26] Cause you're kind of a macho man, right?
[00:43:29] Yeah.
[00:43:29] In a sense.
[00:43:30] So you being a lack of affection, I feel like if I would've had daughters ...
[00:43:36] That changed out, changed out.
[00:43:37] That would've changed me.
[00:43:38] You don't think boys need affection too?
[00:43:40] Boys need more discipline than affection.
[00:43:43] Affection is something more guided from your mom.
[00:43:48] You think so?
[00:43:49] Mom is the ...
[00:43:50] Cause I was watching ... I was watching ...
[00:43:52] Like I have to tell her sometimes, he'll fall, he'll just fall.
[00:43:57] No reason.
[00:43:58] Nobody did nothing for him.
[00:43:58] He flopping?
[00:43:59] He Draymond?
[00:44:00] He Draymond.
[00:44:01] He's Draymond in this situation.
[00:44:04] And your immediate reaction is to go help him.
[00:44:07] Yeah.
[00:44:08] But it's like no.
[00:44:08] He has to learn to pick himself up.
[00:44:11] And that's where the affection and discipline ...
[00:44:14] So, so I was ... There was this social clip of like, G Herbo and his son.
[00:44:20] He started crying.
[00:44:21] On Kai's thing.
[00:44:22] And in that moment, G Herbo was being disciplined while being affectionate.
[00:44:28] Cause he was still holding his son.
[00:44:30] That was an affectionate speech that his son gave them.
[00:44:33] That was a well ...
[00:44:35] It was heartfelt.
[00:44:36] It was heartfelt.
[00:44:38] It's different.
[00:44:39] It's situational.
[00:44:41] That was a very ... You see your son speaking those words.
[00:44:46] You see your son speaking those words, having that wherewithal to communicate his emotions
[00:44:53] in that way and express it.
[00:44:54] That's not ... That may not be the time to ...
[00:44:57] Man up nigga.
[00:44:58] Yeah.
[00:44:58] That's the time to do it.
[00:45:00] But when they're just ...
[00:45:01] You capable of that?
[00:45:02] Yeah.
[00:45:02] All the time.
[00:45:03] Nigga, I'm a crier.
[00:45:05] You are?
[00:45:05] I will cry in a heartbeat, bro.
[00:45:07] I don't give a fuck.
[00:45:08] You are.
[00:45:09] If my emotions is calling for me to cry, I'm going to cry.
[00:45:12] It is what it is.
[00:45:14] And I throw hands too.
[00:45:16] See?
[00:45:17] That's the ...
[00:45:17] That's the toxic message.
[00:45:19] It's like nothing ... Who you gonna throw hands with in here?
[00:45:22] None of us.
[00:45:22] I'm just saying.
[00:45:24] Are you a bitch cause you crying?
[00:45:25] No.
[00:45:25] No, no, no.
[00:45:26] I mean, people express themselves differently.
[00:45:29] It should take a lot though.
[00:45:30] It's it.
[00:45:31] If I'm at the point of crying, it took a lot.
[00:45:34] You remember that time you threw hands and the nigga ran?
[00:45:37] Oh yeah.
[00:45:37] Okay.
[00:45:38] That was it.
[00:45:39] You already know who this is.
[00:45:40] That's Don Peasley.
[00:45:41] That's just the way he is.
[00:45:43] Imagine get online talking all that tough shit.
[00:45:45] And you ...
[00:45:46] I've seen it.
[00:45:47] But I ain't going to be like ...
[00:45:49] Come on, man.
[00:45:51] I'm not even ...
[00:45:52] That's why I talked with God.
[00:45:54] That's what I got.
[00:45:54] That's your God?
[00:45:55] He ain't my God, but I ...
[00:45:57] Oh, nah.
[00:45:58] I ain't going to ...
[00:45:59] I see how Coach that be feeling, bro.
[00:46:01] I was ...
[00:46:02] What were you saying?
[00:46:04] I was like ...
[00:46:05] But, I mean, we've had good ...
[00:46:08] We've had a good relationship.
[00:46:10] Mm-hmm.
[00:46:10] Yo, you already know this, man.
[00:46:12] You know ...
[00:46:13] Ooh!
[00:46:14] Sorry.
[00:46:15] Last thing.
[00:46:19] Speaking on that, but not too much.
[00:46:21] I think I have a blonde loyalty.
[00:46:23] I don't know.
[00:46:25] I think growing up in the 50s made me that way.
[00:46:29] But, like ...
[00:46:31] If somebody do y'all wrong, I can't fuck with them ever again, no matter if y'all squash it.
[00:46:37] That is really just how I am.
[00:46:39] But, the other day, I saw that shit, and I'm like, hmm ...
[00:46:45] What shit did you see?
[00:46:46] Don and Squirrels working with Cam.
[00:46:50] Because I know me on the other end.
[00:46:52] I know me on the other end.
[00:46:53] I would have never done it.
[00:46:54] Now, that's no Jack to y'all.
[00:46:56] Like, I swear.
[00:46:57] Bro, brother got to eat.
[00:46:58] But, that's what I'm saying.
[00:47:00] And, I'm like ...
[00:47:01] I thought that's just how I was until I saw Don do it.
[00:47:06] And, you're like ...
[00:47:06] And, I'm like, yo, my bro got to eat.
[00:47:08] I can't ... Whatever animosity ... I know where Don stands regardless.
[00:47:12] I can't put that on Don, though.
[00:47:15] You know what I'm saying?
[00:47:15] But, at the same time, there's certain niggas, like, if don't like Kwani, don't like Coach,
[00:47:21] yo, you can't even talk to me, bro.
[00:47:23] Like, Kwani will never see me talking to anybody he don't like.
[00:47:27] I don't care what they could do for me.
[00:47:30] Bro, you got that.
[00:47:31] But, on being on the other end, I generally know them.
[00:47:35] So, it's kind of like ...
[00:47:36] That's tough.
[00:47:38] That's business.
[00:47:39] Yeah, that's what I'm saying.
[00:47:40] That's what I'm saying.
[00:47:40] That's what I'm saying.
[00:47:41] You know what's crazy?
[00:47:41] Me and Scrooge literally had this conversation.
[00:47:44] Before the case or happened?
[00:47:45] Before we even talk about it now.
[00:47:48] We talked about this shit probably a few weeks ago.
[00:47:50] It was like, yo, I feel bad fucking with the sun.
[00:47:52] Really?
[00:47:53] Bro, niggas got to eat, though.
[00:47:54] I ain't going to lie.
[00:47:54] Niggas, it's business right now.
[00:47:56] Niggas ain't come to my crib to have fucking jerk chicken, my nigga.
[00:47:59] You got to play niggas.
[00:48:00] Even the other shit, the sun.
[00:48:03] I play sun a certain way.
[00:48:04] I know what you did already, so it's like, I got to play you a certain way.
[00:48:07] Don't worry about that.
[00:48:11] I was always a, that's just how I am.
[00:48:14] Until it put me in a position where do I need to hold on to this?
[00:48:20] And I'm like, Don and Skrills is somebody like, I'm not going to cut off because of this.
[00:48:25] So that shit literally forced my hand in that moment.
[00:48:28] Rob Markman, situations become, they come full circle the same way.
[00:48:31] Like I said, if you realize that the way you are is not affecting you negatively, you can adjust.
[00:48:37] Maybe normally you'd look at the outlook and say, nah, that's not the fuck you.
[00:48:40] I will say though, because I am who I am, that is the exception.
[00:48:48] That's not the rule, nigga.
[00:48:50] There's a lot, it's still up for all y'all niggas that don't like my niggas.
[00:48:55] I don't like y'all neither.
[00:48:56] I don't give a fuck how y'all feel about me.
[00:49:01] That's not the rule.
[00:49:07] You know what's crazy though?
[00:49:09] You know what's crazy though?
[00:49:11] I know you well enough.
[00:49:12] I know that was in mind.
[00:49:14] I know Kojo well enough.
[00:49:15] I know Kojo's going to say something sooner or later, but Kojo said the right old niggas
[00:49:18] darn hanging out with, but I know Kojo well enough.
[00:49:20] I seen two posts on the gram, I said nah, two is too much.
[00:49:23] You know what I saw?
[00:49:24] You know what I saw?
[00:49:27] Shout out to my brother, whoa, brother.
[00:49:30] Brother.
[00:49:32] Who's the brother?
[00:49:33] Nah, not you, not you.
[00:49:38] When he posted it, he was like shout out to my brother, squirrels.
[00:49:42] Let me tell you about my brothers though.
[00:49:47] Even Sunri posted the cover photo.
[00:49:51] Bothered me.
[00:49:52] I told, I text Joe.
[00:49:55] We don't do that, bro.
[00:49:56] The nigga gonna write me on that shit man's eye back.
[00:50:01] Joe is sick.
[00:50:02] You know what?
[00:50:03] We out of here.
[00:50:04] Let's get out of here.
[00:50:05] Let's get out of here.
[00:50:06] We already know this motherfucker.
[00:50:07] Your most favorite lumberjack is always Donald Peasley Don.
[00:50:09] Peasley Don the camera guy.
[00:50:10] You know what it is.
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[00:50:22] Like yo, if you really fuck with the pod.
[00:50:23] I know what time it comes out.
[00:50:24] You know that shit be coming out that early.
[00:50:27] What did you say before?
[00:50:28] Yo, hold on.
[00:50:28] Let's wrap.
[00:50:29] Let's wrap out.
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[00:50:31] Yeah, there's a thin line between liking and subscribing, but do both.
[00:50:34] You know what I'm saying?
[00:50:35] Let it be a panty liner.
[00:50:38] But yeah, Kwani here.
[00:50:40] You can follow at Kwani.
[00:50:41] Wavy in it.
[00:50:42] Facts.
[00:50:43] As of right now, we got a Sonday sale.
[00:50:47] I'm not sure the percentage, but there is a sale.
[00:50:50] Go check that out.
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[00:50:52] Facts.
[00:50:53] You can follow Kojo at Joe underscore got game.
[00:50:57] You can follow Skrillz.
[00:50:59] Skrillz double underscore.
[00:51:01] Yes, sir.
[00:51:02] Double underscore.
[00:51:03] Okay.
[00:51:03] And if you rap, make music, or have any artistic talents,
[00:51:07] follow Preach Gold.
[00:51:09] He's not active there, but I'm sure if you send a DM, he will check it.
[00:51:16] Oh, yeah.
[00:51:17] All right.
[00:51:19] Okay.
[00:51:20] Yo, till next time.
[00:51:22] Yo, shout out to Dane in the building, man.
[00:51:23] Shout outs to Dane.
[00:51:24] Thank you for coming, brother.
[00:51:25] We appreciate you as always.
[00:51:27] This has been, this was my favorite recorded session of the year.
[00:51:30] Yes, it was fun as well.
[00:51:31] This was fun.
[00:51:31] Four episodes done in a day and it went by quick.
[00:51:34] God is the greatest.
[00:51:35] Always.
[00:51:37] Last one.
[00:51:37] You really are.
[00:51:37] It's a very good.
[00:51:37] This was a beat.
[00:51:37] To the next two were just my assistant.
[00:51:37] We're pretty good.
[00:51:37] You're getting all this little during these throughout.
[00:51:38] We're still playing in the building.
[00:51:38] It's a little bit more than ever.
[00:51:38] Two minutes before we're feeling ready.